Are You Sure?

Today i was doing a little bit of blog surfing and i started thinking about my own personal slavery. There are times that Master will say that i need a reminder of who i am. Those are the times when i know my mouth perhaps has gotten a little too loud or too harsh (i never swear) or perhaps i've said to Him "You need to..." instead of "Don't forget to..." or something so simple as saying "Yes Master" in a nice clear voice and meaning it! i'll never stop needing reminders of my own slavery, i always need to be put back in my place after all this time.

Sometimes He micromanages me because that's what i need. Every once in a while He praises me because that's what i deserve. Sometimes when i try really hard to look good for Him and i miss the mark i get disappointed that's life. i'm His slave and i keep trying. Other times when i'm just getting dressed for the day, He loves how i look! Win. =)

Being able to call myself a slave to Master is huge, i'm not sure i "do" anything more in my life. Being His slave is what i do. i didn't just wake up one day and decide that i was going to become submissive or slave-like however. i'm not saying submission can't be learned, i am simply saying that's not how it happened for me. It was a life long process, one that i wasn't even fully aware of until i was an adult. Asking Master for His collar and becoming His slave has been a beautiful journey.

Which is why when i see these brand new blogs saying "I'm a slave" "I even did the laundry last week and didn't yell at him once" or "I let him screw me last night". i have such a hard time not posting and saying that they are making a mockery of our lifestyle. i have said many times that one of the things i love so much about this lifestyle is that there are no rules. It is what we make it so all i want to say is take some time, think about it before you jump in both feet first! Read, learn, talk to people, talk to each other and then read some more. How or why does this effect me? An uneducated person reads that particular blog and thinks "oh okay, that's what it's like to be a slave, i can do that!".... NOOO waiiiiiiiiit!!!!

Now i am in no way saying that people new to the lifestyle shouldn't post a blog or write about their new journey. The only thing i am saying is starting out this life armed with such little knowledge is what is so difficult to see. Before you so readily give each other a title, do your research and build up a good firm foundation of trust. For me it was reading a couple of journals, there were only a few really good ones back then. i was glued to my computer screen learning how those slaves lived their lives with their Masters. It was then that i learned how much work it would be, mentally more than physically really. More than anything i think it was by educating myself, reading more about the lifestyle, more about actual slavery did i learn what it was i wanted to be for Master. i saw what this life "could" be, i saw the dedication and that's what i wanted to become. Ten years later, i'm still not there yet, but some day i will be.

Master was clear on His expectations of me and what my physical transformation would be. i came equipped with the foundation of a submissive mind and heart. What i placed upon myself were expectations of what i believe Master's perfect slave could be. i only learned that though through time and self education. i will never be perfect, but at least i'll always keep trying and i will always have tons to learn.

i count on my fellow bloggers, readers and those who comment. i learn from each one of you. Well, except the spam comments, i don't speak Arabic! =p

Peace to you and yours,

MD's treasure