Master brought me home last night after another week in the hospital. They tell me that they have never seen a better result than what they got with my blood clot. It was 100% blocked and now it's 95% gone. There is a very slim chance that it could come back, even being on the blood thinners that i will have to be on for the next 3-6 months. i'm giving myself injections twice a day and then when my levels stabilize i'll be able to stop those and just take Cumadin. Thank God for insurance as the shots would have been $1500, i paid $5.
Master hung a Welcome Home sign in the garage for me to see when we pulled in last night. Then He bought me some little gifts. A new blanket for the bedroom and a microphone for my computer. He also bought me a card, one of the sweetest cards i have ever seen. The front said: Just so you know..... Inside: I'll never finish loving you. Wow.... what a wonderful thing to come home to. Then He wrote me a very long letter that He put inside the card. He talked about how He will once again be tightening the reins on me but that He wants to give me a chance to heal and He doesn't want to rush me. In the past few months the D/s in our lives although always very present, hasn't been as strong as it once was. i still have His rules to follow but there has been little play time and only a little strong Dominate Force from Him. He has been as always very Dominant and in charge just not demonstrating it so much with actions. If that makes any sense, it does to me, but then it's my life =).
We had a very nice evening and went to bed early so i could rest and He could get a little sleep before getting up in the middle of the night to go to work. Just before we went to sleep, Master spoke of giving me a spanking today. i paused and said... "i don't think You can do that" "i'm not sure but, i think that might be bad" (being on blood thinners and spanking could lead to some pretty serious bruising/bleeding) ...... Not a word from Him. Once again His control has been taken away and He is powerless over whole blood clot episode. Furious? Oh yes, He was speechless but i think the only reason He didn't completely freak out was to try to help me stay as stress free as possible. He's trying so hard but now because of this mess, His power and control over me has yet again been challenged.
He turned over and after a while, He was asleep. When He got up for work in the early AM, He left for work with almost no words. i don't think He's mad at me, i think He's just plain mad. Blind Fury.... like He told me many times and maybe even mentioned in His post, He trusted the hospital to take care of His property and in His eyes, they didn't make it better, they damaged it, possibly for life. Vanilla people would have an almost impossible time understanding the depth of His rage but i think another Owner would be able to relate to Him.
Because my mom is now on dialysis she wasn't able to come and stay with me. my sister has had so many problems of her own lately, she didn't come to visit. But early Monday morning my oldest sister called me, just after i had talked to the Doctor who would be doing the Interventional Radiology procedure. It was the scariest conversation i have ever had in my life as he talked about the risks and possible complications. The clot could break off and go to my lungs, the medicine they were putting me on could cause me to stroke or bleed into my brain..... those were just a few. So when she called, i was scared and i told her what he had just told me. In a few hours, she was walking into my hospital room and she was there for the procedure and when they took me into ICU afterward. Master's parents were there and i was so glad they were, but having her there was truly a Godsend. She held my hand as long as they would let her and just let me cry and tell her why i was so scared. i said things like... i'm too young for this, i don't want to put my family through all this.... i don't want to go to ICU and be hooked up to a thousand different machines and tubes for who knows how long. She just listened and did her best to reassure me that in the end, i would be alright and she was right. Sometimes you just need someone to tell you the obvious, and all i needed to hear was "you're going to be fine".
The next day when i was all hooked up to any machine they could find, my mom walked into the ICU and things looked better still. i wasn't able to move but they did let me have visitors occasionally. She was also reassuring even if she was scared seeing her "baby" laying in ICU as i know she was, she didn't let on. Seeing Master at night was my daily treat. i waited all day for Him to walk in and hold my hand. When He got there i immediately felt like i was going to be alright and all i could think about was Him taking me home. Being home with Him and joking and laughing with Him again.
i pray that the majority of this nightmare is behind us and now we can just move forward, baby steps at getting our life back on track. i'm looking forward to what He has planned for us and Him taking a more active role in His Dominance. i need to try very very hard to stop defending my actions to Him and listen and act as soon as He tells me to do something, instead of thinking of a million reasons why i can't do what He's just told me to do. Trust. That's a biggie, i just have to let go and trust Him. We'll be alright, we always are and eventually, i'll be healthy and able to do more things for Him.
Some day i would like to wake up in the morning without my first thought being, what meds do i need to take? i'll get there, i know i will. It just takes time.
Peace to you and yours,
MD's treasure
This is a slave's daily account of a 24/7 BDSM relationship. If you are easily offended by sexual or kinky topics, this journal is NOT for you, please refrain from reading. Should you decide to proceed, my hope is that you thoroughly enjoy yourself and feel free to leave comments.
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On Being A "Professional" Master/slave
We've never, ever wanted to be mistaken for any of the countless people who claim to be a Master or slave when in reality, they just pretend for money. There's potentially a fine line in other folks' perception, and I've gone to considerable effort to never cross that line. My treasure writes here because she enjoys it, she loves to get and reply to comments and she also does it because I require it. In the beginning, it was a blog, nothing more, nothing less. In the last few years, it has become not only a blog, but also a hub for all of our online activity. Some of that activity is done simply for fun, some of it is to feed some sort of narcissistic need for kudos that I still deny having, and some of it is done to try to supplement our income by sharing our real life with others who might be willing to toss a few bucks our way for a small window into our normal activities. Normal for us but mere fantasies to them, things that they can't get at home or simply things that get their blood flowing south. Like most people, we started out never showing our faces, never being specific about where we live, blah blah blah. One day, I decided that I was tired of acting like I was ashamed of Myself or My girl, just so someone I knew wouldn't find a photo that would make them all butt hurt because of their own insecurities and closed-mindedness. In a very short time, we had started making videos and posting non-anonymous pictures all over the place. Eventually, My girl started doing live cam sessions for cash and it's become a multifaceted "business". That's why we're making this page. I didn't want it on the front page of the blog because this is still her blog, and always will be, but we wanted to add a page for some of the money-making things that we do.
About two years ago, we decided to test the waters with Kindle publishing. For a nominal fee of 99 cents a month, you can get this blog automatically delivered to your Kindle. Unfortunately, this makes it less likely for My girl to get the comments that she so loves, so if you decide to go the Kindle route, please come back here later to leave that comment you were thinking about!
Lately, we've had gentlemen ask if it was possible to buy My treasure's worn stockings. If worn stockings is what you seek, then we are happy to oblige. We've charged very reasonable amounts in the past, and that won't change. Pricing will depend entirely on quantity, color, availability, your location and any other variables or requests. We get her stockings from Europe, and we only order a few times a year, so we may have limited color options at any given time. If you're interested in My girl's worn stockings, or any other requests for that matter, please email her directly at precioustreasure_md@yahoo.com. We've done custom videos and would also be happy to do custom photosets. If it turns you on, and you think we can provide it, please don't hesitate to ask.
About 2 and a half years ago, we also decided to start making videos for sale. We've had a banner on the front page, but we've never really promoted it at all. Well, I'm not really going to promote it too much here either, but if you'd like to check out our clips, you can find them here. You can also find some of them here.
My treasure has also started working as a cam girl on ImLive. There's a banner on the front for this as well, but you can also click here or on the banner below to find her over there or schedule a meeting with her.
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Saturday, March 18, 2006
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