The other morning i disappointed Master. He cuffed my hands behind
my back and told me to get up on my knees from my stomach and it was
fairly impossible for me. He laughed at me of course, while watching me
struggle to get in position. He did try to help me a little but mostly
He just laughed. i am certain that someone 50 pounds lighter than me
could have done it with no trouble at all, for me though, it was all but
impossible and i'm not sure i ever got there. All He said was that i
should be ashamed. In the process i was slightly injured in a couple
different ways, but mostly i was ashamed and embarrassed and humiliated.
i
don't "do" humiliation very well. i don't say that with any amount of
self respect or pride, i'll guarantee you. At this stage of the game, i
should be better at accepting pretty much whatever Master has to throw
my way but for whatever reason, i don't deal with humiliation very
well. i am sensitive to things He says to me and i don't take them as
being humiliation i am hurt. It's a mind game i'm not good at yet.
i
realize that there are many benefits of humiliation where in i could be
stripped of more and more control. When needed i can be knocked down a
peg or ten. i just need to learn how to take it and not let it "hurt"
me. That's where i really struggle, like so much so that i don't know how to get past the initial "ouch".
This is my cross to bear, if you will, because i realize that He'll train me or use me in any way He wishes and i will have to learn to deal with the effects. In some ways, for me it's good to know that i have no choice because if i thought i had a say in the matter or i might be able to worm my way out of one way of training or another, i think i'd try. How's that for an admission for you? It's true though, i really think that if i could inch my way out of something i might try and i'm glad i can't. Sometimes being up against the wall, is the best place for me. =)
i have been really having a hard time writing, i hope i'm working through that....
We're having Master's Dad and sister's family down tonight for supper. i just took 10 minutes to jot this down so i didn't break yet another rule.
i hope everyone is well in blog land!
Peace to you and yours,
MD's treasure
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On Being A "Professional" Master/slave
We've never, ever wanted to be mistaken for any of the countless people who claim to be a Master or slave when in reality, they just pretend for money. There's potentially a fine line in other folks' perception, and I've gone to considerable effort to never cross that line. My treasure writes here because she enjoys it, she loves to get and reply to comments and she also does it because I require it. In the beginning, it was a blog, nothing more, nothing less. In the last few years, it has become not only a blog, but also a hub for all of our online activity. Some of that activity is done simply for fun, some of it is to feed some sort of narcissistic need for kudos that I still deny having, and some of it is done to try to supplement our income by sharing our real life with others who might be willing to toss a few bucks our way for a small window into our normal activities. Normal for us but mere fantasies to them, things that they can't get at home or simply things that get their blood flowing south. Like most people, we started out never showing our faces, never being specific about where we live, blah blah blah. One day, I decided that I was tired of acting like I was ashamed of Myself or My girl, just so someone I knew wouldn't find a photo that would make them all butt hurt because of their own insecurities and closed-mindedness. In a very short time, we had started making videos and posting non-anonymous pictures all over the place. Eventually, My girl started doing live cam sessions for cash and it's become a multifaceted "business". That's why we're making this page. I didn't want it on the front page of the blog because this is still her blog, and always will be, but we wanted to add a page for some of the money-making things that we do.
About two years ago, we decided to test the waters with Kindle publishing. For a nominal fee of 99 cents a month, you can get this blog automatically delivered to your Kindle. Unfortunately, this makes it less likely for My girl to get the comments that she so loves, so if you decide to go the Kindle route, please come back here later to leave that comment you were thinking about!
Lately, we've had gentlemen ask if it was possible to buy My treasure's worn stockings. If worn stockings is what you seek, then we are happy to oblige. We've charged very reasonable amounts in the past, and that won't change. Pricing will depend entirely on quantity, color, availability, your location and any other variables or requests. We get her stockings from Europe, and we only order a few times a year, so we may have limited color options at any given time. If you're interested in My girl's worn stockings, or any other requests for that matter, please email her directly at precioustreasure_md@yahoo.com. We've done custom videos and would also be happy to do custom photosets. If it turns you on, and you think we can provide it, please don't hesitate to ask.
About 2 and a half years ago, we also decided to start making videos for sale. We've had a banner on the front page, but we've never really promoted it at all. Well, I'm not really going to promote it too much here either, but if you'd like to check out our clips, you can find them here. You can also find some of them here.
My treasure has also started working as a cam girl on ImLive. There's a banner on the front for this as well, but you can also click here or on the banner below to find her over there or schedule a meeting with her.
Banners here also!
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