Your attention please.....we've moved!

This will likely be our last post here, so please set your bookmarks to

masterdreamsprecioustreasure.com ,

or, if you want to bypass the warning page, set to

masterdreamsprecioustreasure.com/flog .

Yes, that's flog, not blog. See what I did there? Ya...I'm THAT clever! If you link to us, please remember to change the address, and I promise I'll get our links up (and some new ones she's been wanting to add) on the new blog as soon as I get a chance. Yay for being forced to do this in the middle of outdoor project season! If there are any technical problems with anything, please comment here or on a recent post there, or even better, send me an email at masterdream_pt@yahoo.com . I've never used WordPress before, so I'm learning as I go and I'd appreciate folks bringing problems to my attention. Now, if you just want to tell me how ugly it is, save it because I know how ugly it is!   :)   I'll fix that soon!

If you read via RSS feed, http://masterdreamsprecioustreasure.com/flog/feed/ is where the party's happening.

We apologize for the hassle this causes the folks that visit our little home on the web, but I hope to make our new home thuper thexy and much more fantabulous!

~MD

And now, a final blogger.com word from our resident slavegirl:

This move is harder than it should be.  It's only an address, it's a simple bookmark, it's a website and a quick click of a mouse.  To me though for some reason it's more than that.  It's like leaving a friend behind and starting something entirely new.  It's my sincere hope that you who have enjoyed us here on blogger will continue to do so at our new home on the web, where we hope to really make it our own! 

Thank you all so much for coming back month after month, year after year and supporting me through all the silly mistakes i make!  Tune in to masterdreamsprecioustreasure.com for more slavely-snafu's, that are sure to come!

MD's treasure

New beginnings...

OK you self-righteous pricks at Google, I've removed every single link that could possibly be considered "monetization of Adult content". Thanks for the whole four days notice too, that was mature.

For the rest of you folks that don't suck like Google, I now own masterdreamsprecioustreasure.com. It's gonna take me a few days to get it set up enough to roll out the new blog, but it's coming! Until everything is set up we'll be right here until/unless they pull the plug on us since we're so disgusting and perverted. We apologize for Google's nonsense since that's not something they're capable of. Please bear with us in this time of frustration, anger and uncertainty.

masterdreamsprecioustreasure.com - learn it, live it, love it!   :)

~MD

This Sucks

Well Master has been working on getting us a new home and we're pretty sure we have it all figured out! He's just about cross-eyed but with the short amount of time we were given, i believe He's made His decision.  As soon as everything is set up and running, we'll let you all know where we'll be.

In the mean time, who knows what blogger will do to us here or what we'll have to take down to remain on here for a while until we're ready to make the move!!  Basically all i can say is... This sucks.

i just know that they want to get rid of the riff raff and they are certainly clearing house doing it this way!  i don't want to move, i like it here and i like how my little blog looks.  i've been here for going on nine years and we had no intention of going anywhere.  Sure it might be boring to some people, but the blog has always looked just about the same with only a few changes every once in a while.  Like i said, it's boring to some people but for me, it has a sense of familiarity and comfort.  When you clicked to come here for all these years, you knew what you were going to get and you knew we'd be here.

It just stinks that we have to move by no choice of our own.  Never fear though, once we're in our new home, we'll be there and just as consistent as we've always been!

Well i am going to sign off for now, i have a hard time writing when all i can think about is the fact that we have to leave!

Peace to all of you out there going through the same thing we are!! Hugs!!!

MD's treasure

Thanks for all the ambiguity, Google!

I don't know what's going to happen to this blog in light of the asinine mass email Google sent out to anyone who says anything harsher than darn or shows anything sexier than a nun with her habit blown up to her ankle, but searching for "Master Dream's precious treasure" will always lead you to us, no matter where we end up. I'm exploring our options, and as long as this blog is still here, this is where we'll keep you updated. If this blog is yanked by the self-appointed morality police at Google, we'll post info about our new whereabouts on FetLife, Flickr and Tumblr, all of which are linked to over there. --------------->

Maybe Google will answer the thousands of emails they've gotten about what their completely ambiguous email meant, or how far they plan on taking their new found fascism, but we're not going to be holding our breath in this house, and I'm not going to completely gut this blog of all links just to appease a few pencil pushing dictators.

~MD

What Scares you Most?

The other night Master sent me an email.  It was titled "assignment".  Sometimes when i get those emails i immediately get a lump in my throat because i think it's going to be horrible.  This time i sort of got that feeling but the assignment wasn't that bad.  It sure stuck with me though, the whole idea of it has been with me ever since.

This was the assignment:

I want you to take 30 minutes and come up with a list of things that have never been done to you, things you fear I'm likely to do or make you do sooner or later, or even things I might never do, but you think are possible...things that terrify you.

Go!

That was the entire thing.  Only thirty minutes, hey not too bad.... that was my first thought.  Then it started to sink in, i had to dedicate 30 minutes to thinking about things that i knew He may do to me in the future that seriously terrify me. Umm ready, set, scream!

So once i read the email again i thought i could categorize them into things that completely terrify me and things that just mildly freak me out.

So this was my response:

Terrified of:
Branding
Hood with a breather gag.
Any other type of breathing restrictions really, like through a tube or whatever.

Things that frighten me;
Labia piercings.
Cuttings.
Big piercings that require holes or tunnels.
Fire play.
Shave my head.
Not let me use the furniture or sleep in the bed anymore.
Take away coffee and tea.
Take away soda.
Take away specific foods that i like not just like cake and cookies but specific foods that i like such as beets because You don't like them, things like that.


i guess that's about all i can think off right off the top of my head, i'm sure i'm missing some big ones.

Yours

There are a couple on there that i should explain.  The branding is one that has always freaked me out to the core.  It's also been one that i've always thought He might actually do someday.

The piercings i only put on there because i know there will be more piercings some day and some of them will be fairly intense.  i want them, i'm just frightened of them.

Shaving my head.  Master really loves long hair, it's almost a passion of His, if you will.  However if it ever gets to a point where He doesn't care for my hair for some reason, i could see Him shaving my head completely.  That would freak me out, a lot.

i have just been thinking about this list a lot since i wrote it, i wonder what i missed..... i certainly missed a few things i'm sure...... hmmmm....

Peace to you and yours,

MD's treasure

57' T-Bird

i have mentioned Master's friend who comes down to our house on Tuesday nights on many occasions.  He's the only person in our lives who knows our relationship, through and through.  He is privy to pretty much everything that we do and Master has even opened up my camming sessions to him when i am working on Tuesday nights.  The only thing Master really hasn't done is "share" me with him.  Watching me from a distance is just about all he is comfortable with and i certainly don't judge him, one way or another.  That doesn't mean that he doesn't like to watch whatever Master is willing to show!! =)

Last night Master and i went into town, as i mentioned in my last post.  We had some errands to run and Master's buddy always works late, every night of the week.  If he's not working on a project for a customer, he's working on one of his own vehicles.  So if we know he's at work and we have time (or if there are donuts!!) we stop by.  We walked into the shop and we weren't in there for much more than a few seconds when over in the last bay i spotted a  beautiful 57' Thunderbird!  It had been restored and it was really pretty.  Now, Master is NOT a car guy, to say the least. Because He's a smart Man He knows how things work but He just couldn't be less interested in "cars".  i however, do have an interest in cars.  Master knows more than i do about how they run and work but i have much more of an interest in them, in general.

There is no explanation for why i like them, i just do.  Needless to say, Master isn't fond of my fascination with vehicles and i don't go on and on about them,  i simply enjoy a pretty car.  However, when i spied this once in a life-time vehicle within my grasp, i wanted to check it out! Master's buddy was more than happy to let me because i guess if you're a guy who likes cars, you probably like to see naked girls in hot cars!  So, it was up on the hoist a bit so i hopped up there and bent over the car and leaned in to get a better view.

Because the car is a convertible i had no trouble leaning far over to check things out!  Master said STOP! i know that voice, that means it's photo op time!  His buddy came over to me and lifted my short little dress a bit more to show lots of stocking top and maybe a bit more!

It's always funny to me when i am naturally doing something and all of a sudden Master sees a picture.

Then Master had me go around the car and take a few more.  Master's buddy wanted me to get in the car and that was a struggle!  The car has a huge steering wheel and almost no clearance to get in, once i was in though, it was awesome! =)

Master took a couple more shots and it was time to get out!  i was getting nervous!!!  i was sitting in what could have easily been a $40,000 car!!

We decided that when those kinds of cars show up at the shop, we do some more photo shoots! Better ones though! =)

i hope you're all having a wonderful Sunday!

MD's treasure

Nintendo!

Today has been sort of a lazy Saturday.  Master and i were planning on cleaning today after a scheduled event at our work but the event was cancelled.  No one bothered to tell us of course until yesterday.  It was sort of a nice surprise not having to clean twice this week but a little notice would have been great.

Master told me to give the dog a haircut and even though i'm terrible at doing it, it needed to be done.  It wouldn't be quite so bad if the dog were a little better behaved, he's fine as long as i don't do anything he doesn't want done to him.  Then all bets are off.

Master even let me play my very favorite video game! Don't laugh!! He has an ancient Nintendo!  That's it, there are no letters or numbers or anything after it, just a Nintendo!  my very favorite game in the whole world was/is Mario, the original Mario with Duck Hunt on it.  We were talking about that game one day and He said that He "thought" He might have it.  Not only did He have it, it was in perfect condition, still in the box, opened and maybe played once or twice. He brought the machine upstairs, hooked it up and it all works like i last remember it. Even though i haven't played that game for more than 20 years, it's amazing how fast i picked up on it again.  Pretty good times.

We're going into town this evening to run a few errands and i think maybe even get a snack!

i hope you're all having a nice Saturday night. 

MD's treasure

Wearing Master's Cum

Master has a rule that i'm sure is fairly standard among Master's and slaves.  If there is cum to drink, you don't spill a drop, i know i'm not special in this regard at all. =)

So the other morning i was giving Master a blow job and morning blow jobs never last as long as night time blow jobs! We were both into it and i knew it was feeling very good!  Before i knew it, Master surprised me and told me to sit back on my knees on the floor.  He had been lying on the bed and He quickly stood up and came all over me.  All over my neck, chest, my tummy and legs! 

Once i was covered in Master's cum He told me to rub it in, rub it all over me.  At that point, i knew it wasn't going to be washed off before we went outside to work for the day!  Master told me to wash off whatever was dripping and that was all.  i was to remain sticky and smelling like His cum until He allowed me to shower, whenever that would  be.

He told me to put on a little dress and get ready to work outside for the day.  i just knew i was going to be surrounded by gnats because they've been so bad this year.  It really wasn't as bad as i thought it might be, although i did end up getting a couple in my mouth.  Turns out i've gotten a couple in my mouth since that day too, it's just that the gnats are terrible right now and it didn't have anything at all to do with wearing Master's cum!  =)

After a while i could feel it drying but i forgot about it until the wind would pick up and i would smell it all over again.  i wasn't allowed to shower until late into the evening and while i really hate being "dirty" in any way, i wasn't in a hurry to wash Him off of me.

It was a good day.

Peace to you and yours,

MD's treasure

Happy Father's Day

Just a quick Happy Father's Day post to all of you celebrating today!

i very rarely think of what my life would have been like had i known my father.  Only just a few moments ago i checked my facebook for the first time today and was caught off guard.  my sister somehow got a very old photo of my dad and posted it on my timeline as a surprise.  i believe he was camping, which was what almost all the pictures we have of him are, that or fishing.

It was a photo i had never seen before and that's very rare.  There are very few photos of him as it is and finding one that one of us kids haven't seen is nearly impossible.  The picture just struck me and made me think for the briefest of moments what it might have been like to know him.  He was gone before i was two.  Like Master always says, had anything been different or changed, we wouldn't be where we are today! =) 

To all of you who are celebrating today, i hope you have a wonderful day!

We're off in just a bit to celebrate with Master's Dad.  i'm hoping for a good day!!

Peace to you and yours!

MD's treasure

Friends

Master and i joke all the time about 'not thinking it through'.  Saying things and not thinking about what the actual consequence might actually be!

So let me say this before anyone gets any ideas that i think i made the wrong choice or i think i should have made a different choice, nothing could be further from the truth.  i will say.... i didn't think the whole thing through....

When i came here to be with Master i knew i was leaving my entire life and everything i knew behind.  The town i left behind, while it was the only city i've ever known it's got a very high crime rate and there's nothing super special about it.  However the tiny village where i grew up, is super special and everyone knows everyone.  So i was no stranger to being around people i knew and plenty of them.  It's grown a lot but it will never lose that feeling about it.

What i didn't think through wasn't the fact that i would be leaving my family, it was that i wouldn't have anyone here.  From day one i had Master's Mom, but i've never had a friend to call up and chat with.  It just never once dawned on me i wouldn't start a new life here with friends and family.

People most generally find friends through work and seeing that i wasn't working, there weren't going to be friends for me.  Master's job never really offered friends although the one couple we met were lovely but moved away. Even though Master's Mom was usually wonderful to talk to she was still Master's Mom and i wasn't able to tell her the things friends tell friends.  For a long time i held out hope that Master's sister would befriend me but that's hopeless, it turns out she will never be someone i can call a friend.  You can't make someone like you, lol!  So that's a dead-end.  i believe she's one of those people that if i even keep trying i will continue to set myself up for disappointment that is absolutely something i do not need.

i think since Master's Mom had her stroke and now of course since she's gone, it's really sunk in that there's no one for me to just pick up the phone and chat with.  It really bugs Master when i call my sister and chat with her.  He doesn't care for her and that leaves absolutely no one to talk to.  He allows me to speak her, He just doesn't care for her at all.  i heard a long time ago that women need to say a certain amount of words per day, i never thought i was like that, because i am a pretty quiet person.  Maybe that is the case for me though, i don't need to talk about anything really, just to say things and have someone hear me, that's a good thing.

There is a point to my rambling, i think it's time i really assert myself (Master thinks so too) and start looking for a munch group to attend.  Whether it's going back to the group we attended one time, they were great! One never knows. i am not expecting to find my soul sister or anything like that.  Maybe it will just be something to do once in a while and that's really all i'm looking for right now.  Master said He'll go and i'm hoping He has a good time.  Now i just have to find a group and location that works for us! =)

Have a good Saturday!

Peace to you and yours,

MD's treasure

Asking For A Rule

Just after i posted my previous post about healing up i realized that i was twisting my nose ring quite a bit and it was getting sore.  i think it was becoming more of a habit than anything and i wasn't doing it with clean sanitized hands.  i was just doing it willy-nilly.  i knew if i kept playing with that ring i was going to get a raging infection, already being as sore as it was i wasn't sure it wasn't already too late.

So i went to Master with a request for help, but a serious one.  i have asked for His help before but nothing in a real serious manner.  i got His full attention (that's always key) and then i presented my case.  i asked Master for a rule temporary or not of course was up to Him.  i knew once i presented my issue it was going to be out of my hands.  i also knew that the punishment i thought of needed to be something fairly intense, at least something that would let Master know i was serious.
Once i had Master's attention, i told Him my problem and then i asked Him if He would help me.  i was asking Him that if at any time He saw me playing with my septum ring, He would punish me.  Right there or as soon as physically possible.  The punishment being 15 hard swats on each fanny cheek with a wooden spoon, every time He saw me OR every time i reported an indiscretion.

Master didn't like my punishment but He was impressed with the severity of it.  For a one time punishment it wasn't anything but if it was to be repeated many times, i thought it would be a good reminder.  His punishment is and would be three swats with HIS wooden spoon on each inner thigh!  His, i believe is MUCH worse than mine might have been.  Oh, and i had forgotten how HUGE that wooden spoon of His is!!!  i have never seen a wooden spoon that large, in my life!!!!

i was really shocked at how eager Master was to take on this new rule.  i thought that i might get scolded or the rule wouldn't be put into place.  Reason being is that i wasn't sure if i should be doing this at all.  i was quite torn on the whole thing.  Should a slave ask for a rule herself, how slave-like is that?  i understood that i needed guidance but i thought Master might see it me trying to take the reigns.  Instead i believe He saw it as i did and as i hoped He would;  me seeing an area that i truly needed improvement, that He couldn't have possibly known about without me telling Him.

This isn't something that i would make a habit of because then i would certainly think it would be totally overstepping that boundary.

i believe we were out shopping later that day and Master looked over at me and asked me if i had just been playing with the ring.  Master is very fair and willing to give me the benefit of the doubt but i admitted that i had been turning it, for no reason.  We got home and Master told me to lie down on the bed, legs spread wide and that's when He pulled out Paul Bunyon's wooden spoon.  He alternated whacks on each thigh and holy crap i felt it in my toes.

my fear of pain keeps me honest, i will say that.  i wouldn't touch this ring unless it was on fire! (or i'm cleaning it!)  i haven't had a punishment since but i'll keep you posted.  Unfortunately my memory is WAYYY worse than my fear of pain! So i will start spinning soon! =)

Have a wonderful day!

Peace to you and yours!

MD's treasure      

Healing!

i am healing!  All over, even!  my tattoo is healing, my septum ring is healing... i don't think i mentioned what did there and i believe my toe is healing (that's coming along slowly, but it's healing). 

The septum ring... heh.  i changed jewelry quite a while ago and that went fine and as Master ordered several different types of  new jewelry, i tried going up to a 10g from a 12g so not a huge jump, at all. We were both a little excited about trying to get into this 10g purple segment ring.  i couldn't get the segment ring in, i just couldn't do it.  But when i tried the 10g retainer, that went in, not gently but it DID go in.  Turns out, i probably shouldn't have put it in and really, i've had enough piercings and i know better... DERP! Well, ya live and learn.  Next time i'll wait a while and we'll get a taper.  So my nose was very sore for a while.  BUT!  i have the 10g purple segment ring in now and we love it! =)

**i do not however recommend EVER doing what i did, it's bad juju!!! Please wait until your piercing is totally healed and ready for stretching and PLEASE get a taper.  i was thuper thtupid! It hurt for a long time and it was dumb, this is a public service announcement! For real.**

The body is an amazing thing however.  It just does what it's supposed to do, it heals itself all over, without being told what to do! =)  The tattoo only has a few little areas to go before it's smooth all over! =)

Now i just wish this slave would always do what she she was supposed to do without having to be told, or scolded for that matter!!  Sometimes or most of the time, i think i'm behaving better than Master thinks i am.  Why is that?  This week while my toe has been hurting, i thought that i was really pushing myself and working hard to still complete my daily chores, i still made supper all but one night.... etc.  i said something to Master last night about being a good girl and He scoffed at me! pfft! HA!  i think it's good that He pushes me and that i don't get complacent though! But pfft! haha! =p

What is everyone doing for Father's Day?  Master loves food grilled out but He does the grilling.  Hmm how fair is that to have Him cook His own Father's Day meal?  Well i'll have to think about that one!

We're working on the pool today.  Here begins that saga.

Have a wonderful day! 

MD's treasure

A Wonderful Thing!

Master and i had been talking about coloring my hair a funky color.  If you ever watch NY Ink, Megan has this awesome bright orange hair that Master loves.  He's just been talking about having some fun with my hair.  The hair on my head you pervs. =p

We have a couple of reservations about doing this however, well one really.  We don't want it to look like i'm just trying to look 20 again.  i'm not someone who is searching for her youth.  i am not at all interested in that, i simply think it would be fun to do and if it looks bad we'll color it back. 

It's interesting though when i say my one reservation is "what other people think" when i just posted that 15 things to let go of and one of them being; what others think of you.  Did i just answer my own question? Hmmm.

So anyway, we went to Sally's Beauty Supply the other night because we had a few minutes to kill while our take and bake pizza was being made.  i asked Master if we could just pop over to see what they had.  There was one girl working and one guy who i'm not even sure he was working there, i think he might have just been her friend.  They were very friendly and very helpful.  They basically just helped us shop, instead of just giving us tips they were just telling us what we needed.

We bought purple color!  We'll see what happens, i'm not sure what i'm going to do with it! i'm a lil freaked out about it! =p

At the end of our shopping trip we were at the counter and Master pointed out a small display of body jewelry for me to look browse.  The guy was quite dramatic and fun and he said that their jewelry wasn't all that great but then said to me, "i love your collar!".  i turned to Master and said "he said collar", the guy said "oh no i just meant necklace!" and i smiled my widest friendliest smile and said ..."no no you were right the first time!!".

As Master went to push the door open to leave the store the guy literally exclaimed and nearly yelled "AWESOME!!!" He knew exactly what i meant and for whatever reason was very happy to hear about our dynamic.  With that, Master turned and opened the door and we walked out to get our pizza.  We'd been in there about 30 minutes too long!

BDSM is popping up all over these days, isn't it? What a wonderful thing!

Peace to you and yours,

MD's treasure

Woops!

Boy did i make a big booboo last Sunday night!  Master calls me a clod, i guess this is further evidence of that!  Several years ago had both of my big toenails removed because i had suffered from terrible ingrown nails all my life.  We hoped that by having them permanently surgically removed i would never have the worry of them ever coming back, like some people do.  Well that part was true, there's no chance of that, they'll never come back!

Of course there's no nail which left an exposed bed it's tender at times but not too bad, it's very ugly but i paint it and try to cover it up.  There is a bump at the end of my toe from the surgery and it's always been there since the surgery.

Sunday night i was cleaning up from supper, Master's Dad was over and we had just grilled out.  i was taking things inside and i had on my favorite Vera Wang wedges for our picnic.  =)  Master bought them for me for Christmas this past year... VERY cute!!!! i had my arms full of stuff and i was walking into the garage where the exterior door meets the cement patio.  Somehow (because i'm clumsy) my foot caught on the sill and tore from the top of that toe where the nail should have been and tore it almost off.  It all happened so fast that when Master came to get the stuff out of my hands, i dropped the pepper shaker and the handle broke, (i'm still in trouble for that) and all of a sudden there was blood everywhere!!!! Noooo not on my Vera Wang's!!!!!!!

So Master slipped my shoe off and tried to take the rest off the stuff that i hadn't dropped out of my hands then i asked Him to just get paper towels for the moment.  It bled for at least 45 minutes.  i got it to stop bleeding and decided not to go to the ER, Master said only i was going to be able to tell if i needed to go to the ER.  He was right, i just detest making those decisions.

So, here i am, three days later, limping but my toe is in tact and in less pain than i was, that's for sure!  i'm trying to stay off of it but that's been nearly impossible.  my only hope is that it heals well, only time will tell.  Who knows how long it will be until i'm back in a pump.  i should be back in summer wedges soon, i hope! =)

He lovingly calls me a clod, for good reason! hahaha!!!

Peace to you and yours,

MD's treasure

(my Vera Wang's came clean!!!)  

Give Up And Be Happy!

i never do this but i came across this list and i really thought it was worth sharing, i mean really worth reading.  As i started reading i thought this sounds more like an "everything a slave shouldn't be, list".  i was so disappointed in myself as i recognized my faults, the more i read.      

15 Things You Should Give Up To Be Happy

Here is a list of 15 things which, if you give up on them, will make your life a lot easier and much, much happier. We hold on to so many things that cause us a great deal of pain, stress and suffering – and instead of letting them all go, instead of allowing ourselves to be stress free and happy – we cling on to them. Not anymore. Starting today we will give up on all those things that no longer serve us, and we will embrace change. Ready? Here we go:

1. Give up your need to always be right. There are so many of us who can’t stand the idea of being wrong – wanting to always be right – even at the risk of ending great relationships or causing a great deal of stress and pain, for us and for others. It’s just not worth it. Whenever you feel the ‘urgent’ need to jump into a fight over who is right and who is wrong, ask yourself this question: “Would I rather be right, or would I rather be kind?”Wayne Dyer. What difference will that make? Is your ego really that big?

1) As a slave, there's no question that it's better to be quiet and unless you know something terrible will happen if you don't speak up, there's no reason to "be right".  There is absolutely no reason to correct my Owner just to make myself feel better.  Always, "be kind".  This is a lesson well learned, for this slave.

2. Give up your need for control. Be willing to give up your need to always control everything that happens to you and around you – situations, events, people, etc. Whether they are loved ones, coworkers, or just strangers you meet on the street – just allow them to be. Allow everything and everyone to be just as they are and you will see how much better will that make you feel.

“By letting it go it all gets done. The world is won by those who let it go. But when you try and try. The world is beyond winning.” Lao Tzu


3. Give up on blame. Give up on your need to blame others for what you have or don’t have, for what you feel or don’t feel. Stop giving your powers away and start taking responsibility for your life.



4. Give up your self-defeating self-talk. Oh my. How many people are hurting themselves because of their negative, polluted and repetitive self-defeating mindset? Don’t believe everything that your mind is telling you – especially if it’s negative and self-defeating. You are better than that.
“The mind is a superb instrument if used rightly. Used wrongly, however, it becomes very destructive.” Eckhart Tolle

5. Give up your limiting beliefs about what you can or cannot do, about what is possible or impossible. From now on, you are no longer going to allow your limiting beliefs to keep you stuck in the wrong place. Spread your wings and fly!
“A belief is not an idea held by the mind, it is an idea that holds the mind” Elly Roselle

6. Give up complaining. Give up your constant need to complain about those many, many, maaany things – people, situations, events that make you unhappy, sad and depressed. Nobody can make you unhappy, no situation can make you sad or miserable unless you allow it to. It’s not the situation that triggers those feelings in you, but how you choose to look at it. Never underestimate the power of positive thinking.

6) i think i could go on and on about this one but i would just say it's not all about me.  Being able to cut back on the complaining just means recognizing that this life isn't about me, it's about Him and making Him happy.  Why am *i* complaining about this or that when my focus should be about His comfort, His Happiness, His health?  Now i'm not saying that if i am in pain, or if i am cold or i am hurting i should ignore it, i'm just saying that there is a way to present those concerns.

7. Give up the luxury of criticism. Give up your need to criticize things, events or people that are different than you. We are all different, yet we are all the same. We all want to be happy, we all want to love and be loved and we all want to be understood. We all want something, and something is wished by us all.

8. Give up your need to impress others. Stop trying so hard to be something that you’re not just to make others like you. It doesn’t work this way. The moment you stop trying so hard to be something that you’re not, the moment you take of all your masks, the moment you accept and embrace the real you, you will find people will be drawn to you, effortlessly.


9. Give up your resistance to change. Change is good. Change will help you move from A to B. Change will help you make improvements in your life and also the lives of those around you. Follow your bliss, embrace change – don’t resist it.
“Follow your bliss and the universe will open doors for you where there were only walls” Joseph Campbell

10. Give up labels. Stop labeling those things, people or events that you don’t understand as being weird or different and try opening your mind, little by little. Minds only work when open. “The highest form of ignorance is when you reject something you don’t know anything about.” Wayne Dyer

11. Give up on your fears. Fear is just an illusion, it doesn’t exist – you created it. It’s all in your mind. Correct the inside and the outside will fall into place.
“The only thing we have to fear, is fear itself.” Franklin D. Roosevelt

12. Give up your excuses. Send them packing and tell them they’re fired. You no longer need them. A lot of times we limit ourselves because of the many excuses we use. Instead of growing and working on improving ourselves and our lives, we get stuck, lying to ourselves, using all kind of excuses – excuses that 99.9% of the time are not even real.

12) Oh this one was written with me in mind.  =( When i've done something wrong, i'll try to think of anything i can to be sure Master doesn't think it was my fault for whatever it was i did wrong!!! 


13. Give up the past. I know, I know. It’s hard. Especially when the past looks so much better than the present and the future looks so frightening, but you have to take into consideration the fact that the present moment is all you have and all you will ever have. The past you are now longing for – the past that you are now dreaming about – was ignored by you when it was present. Stop deluding yourself. Be present in everything you do and enjoy life. After all life is a journey not a destination. Have a clear vision for the future, prepare yourself, but always be present in the now.
 
14. Give up attachment. This is a concept that, for most of us is so hard to grasp and I have to tell you that it was for me too, (it still is) but it’s not something impossible. You get better and better at with time and practice. The moment you detach yourself from all things, (and that doesn’t mean you give up your love for them – because love and attachment have nothing to do with one another,  attachment comes from a place of fear, while love… well, real love is pure, kind, and self less, where there is love there can’t be fear, and because of that, attachment and love cannot coexist) you become so peaceful, so tolerant, so kind, and so serene. You will get to a place where you will be able to understand all things without even trying. A state beyond words.

15. Give up living your life to other people’s expectations. Way too many people are living a life that is not theirs to live. They live their lives according to what others think is best for them, they live their lives according to what their parents think is best for them, to what their friends, their enemies and their teachers, their government and the media think is best for them. They ignore their inner voice, that inner calling. They are so busy with pleasing everybody, with living up to other people’s expectations, that they lose control over their lives. They forget what makes them happy, what they want, what they need….and eventually they forget about themselves.  You have one life – this one right now – you must live it, own it, and especially don’t let other people’s opinions distract you from your path.

15) Master and i certainly have been working toward this for a long time.  For people in our lifestyle it's difficult to pull away or rather, step outside of ourselves.  Obviously we are very open, on line and should someone in our family happen upon us, then so be it.  However, no one in our immediate family knows our lifestyle.  i'm not sure if we'll ever completely open up to anyone but perhaps we will, it would be wonderful for us of that i'm sure.  i just really have reservations about Master's Dad and my sister and brother.  i think my sister would be ok in time, i don't think my brother would ever understand.  i'm pretty sure Master doesn't care very much what His sister or brother think.  =p

So while i believe every word of this one and i would love to follow this to be free, i can only hope that this is us, one day! =)


i hope you all enjoyed the list, i thought it was awesome!

Peace to you and yours,

MD's treasure  

Awesome Desk PLUS!! Live Chat!! =)

This past week has been nuts around here!  Master started His desk project and that meant taking the entire den apart.  i have been trying to sneak in a post here and there but every time i sat down to start a post He would need my help!

Anyway, the desk is nearly finished and now that just means putting the room back together.  i can't wait to see what it looks like once it's all in place! i think it's going to look awesome.  i can't even imagine what it would have cost to buy something like this instead of build it.  It's really beautiful, pictures soon, i promise!  The cage isn't included yet, however, He doesn't have the portion finished. Soon, soon... i swear! =)

So here's something exciting!  While Master was waiting for me one day, He put this live chat on the blog! i am super stoked about it!  Whenever you come to the blog, just type in a screen name and see if i'm on!  If i'm on line, i'll be logged in!  Here's the thing though, you certainly do NOT have to wait for me to be online.  You are totally welcome to use this as a chat room to visit with each other at any time!

It's not a sophisticated program and couldn't be easier to log in to so please feel free to pop over and chat whenever you like!  There may be more structured times where i'll be on line for question and answer type things.  We'll have to see how it works out.  Right now we're just testing it out!

Hope to chat with ya soon!

MD's treasure

It's A Process!

The other day Master and i went to buy some supplies at Menards, if you don't know what this is, it's a chain Home Improvement Store.  Anyway, we had a large lumber cart that wasn't cooperating and Master told me to stay with the cart while He went and gathered some other items we needed. 

i did as He said and stood at the cart while He was away.  While Master was gone i was just watching passers-by with their carts, shopping and walking around.  i took particular notice of this one woman with her cart.  She was clearly browsing the store with not much aim, if you will.  She was going up and down each isle as though she was just looking for ... nothing.  She really looked sort of lost and more than anything, she looked as though she had no purpose.  i watched her weave in and out of each isle with nothing at all in her cart. 

The more i watched her the more appreciative i became of the structure in my life.  i knew absolutely nothing about this woman but her patterns just made me so grateful for Master.  As i stood there at our cart watching for Master to appear, it occurred to me that when He turned the corner and saw me, it probably wouldn't even cross His mind that i was exactly where He left me.  Why would it?  He told me to stay, so there i stood.

Why isn't everything so cut and dry for me?  Some rules i couldn't imagine breaking, no matter how difficult they are.  When i'm hungry and i know He wouldn't find out why can't i just sneak a bite? He won't know. But i just can't, it's against the rules and He says so, that's why.  The keys to the locks i wear are in His pants pocket at the end of the bed, would i ever think to unlock myself without His permission?  That's actually laughable, i would never.

Why then is it okay to run around the house barefoot sometimes or in lower heels than the rules state?  That's a big one and i am reprimanded often for this same infraction.  Talking from room to room, it was "okay" to just do that.  Until now, that is.  This is one He's demanding i stop immediately.  The punishment will be to wear a gag until He's satisfied that i've learned that lesson.  He doesn't care where i am in the house, i'll come to Him to speak.  Unless the situation is dire, of course.

i wish i knew how to make each and every rule mean as much to me as the next.  Every single thing comes from Master, every single solitary word that comes from Him are His words to me.  That in and of itself is enough for me to take it to heart.  Why then would there be any distinction at all from one rule to the next?  Sure there are some that are more sentimental than others, but everything that He tells me to do, everything that He wants from me should carry the same weight. 

From holding a board for Him and helping Him build His next project to helping Him choose a movie to watch.  i am His partner in all things.  Everything should be just as important as the next and the next.  i would love for Him one day know that every rule, everything He expects of me will be "done" without question or having to wonder.  How amazing would that be, for the both of us?

i say this a lot, i need work!  i try every day to recognize where i'm faltering.  Master corrects me often and as difficult as it is, i need it.  It's a process, it's a journey, it's our life.  i wouldn't trade a moment of it!

Peace to you and yours,

MD's treasure     

New Doctor, Big Surprise

Master started seeing a Doctor here in town a few months ago.  We decided if we liked him, we would think about switching my care from my current physician to the new doctor.  It wouldn't be something we'd take lightly because i have a rather extensive medical history.  We wanted to see this doctor a few times and make sure he would be a good fit.  This was also a decision that we've been mulling over for years because my doctors nurse was really a thorn in my side and preventing me to see the doctor when needed.  my doctor, we felt, just wasn't providing great care for me so it was time to start shopping around.

Master had seen this new guy a few times and we were satisfied that he would be more than satisfactory in providing the care i was going to need.  We both liked him, he was about our age and had a good sense of humor.  It would also be nice for Master and i to see the same doctor, just for consistency.

Today was my first appointment to "establish care", as they say.  As i go to every appointment with Master, i already know the new doctor so there wasn't much of a "meet and greet" type of thing.  We just talked about what i thought i would need from him and ran through the basics, all the boring stuff.

So he had me hop up on the table and that's when he asked me about my septum piercing, he was simply curious as to when i had gotten it done as he didn't remember seeing it before.  i told him that i got it done in February and since he brought it up, i said that i'd read all over that when "doctor shopping" be sure to find a piercing friend physician.  He sort of laughed and said that he was neither, that it was none of his business!! =)  Oh, well good deal! =)

Then he said, with sort of a quirky smile on his face, "speaking of which, I do know that this (tapping the Eternity Collar) isn't just a necklace, am I right?".  i just smiled of course and looked at the doctor and looked at Master.  Then immediately said to the doctor, "How did you know?!" He just said that he'd seen pictures.  He wanted to know more, our level of involvement and what it meant to us.  i obliged by showing him the tattoo as it really tells our entire story, with the cuffs, the collar, ball gag.  We didn't completely spill the beans and say that we're Master/slave...that type of thing.  i just said that this is our life and it always has been since we got together.  Master did however say that it was the BDSM symbol at the bottom of the tattoo and the doctor was completely familiar with that.

i've been having some issues with my left shoulder that he gave me some exercises for.  He asked if we are careful not to do any BDSM related activities to further injure my shoulder, while it's healing...... hahaha REALLY?  A doctor who you can talk to about BONDAGE? OH MY GOSH!

i just can't believe how fortunate we are to have not only a doctor who tolerates BDSM but one who is familiar enough with it to recognize a collar when he sees one and knows at least a little bit about bondage! =)  Win.

Peace to you and yours,

MD's treasure

To say we were stunned is, an understatement?  Yeah that's the word.  Amazed, that's another good word.  Good fortune, that's another good saying.  

Productive Day!

Yesterday was a very productive day for Master and i.  i mentioned that Master is going to build a desk for the den and that means moving things around a bit.  Master really only has His buddy that comes over on Tuesday nights to help Him move things and it's a lot to ask him to help us do everything.  So we needed to get a big entertainment center downstairs and Master was going to do it Himself.  Once Master had it all strapped to a cart, i helped Him get it down the stairs.  i didn't just guide it down the stairs either, i was working and it felt good!  Once we had it all in place in the basement, Master said that it went very smoothly and He was really excited to have that portion of the job done. 

Then later when Master's friend came over we had another task to tackle.  This one wasn't going to be quite so simple.  Master had this older 55" rear projection TV that we needed to get from the basement to the living room, up... stairs.  Just to give you and idea of the weight of the thing, it took 4 men to get it down to the basement and part of the bottom broke off when they were taking it down.  So...  this was going to be difficult to say the least.  Master and His buddy had been talking about how they were going to get this monster upstairs for literally years now. As there wasn't really a great solution it just sort of sat stagnant.  But today was the day and solution or not, it was going up!  i said that i would help and they hadn't planned on me helping nor would i be counted on for much support.

After a whole lot of deliberating, i said why can't we just carry it up "like this"? In other words just 'man handle it'? Master on the bottom, His buddy on top and me in the middle.  Master's buddy said "OHH A SANDWHICH!"  "sigh" ... hahahaha  Well, not exactly, but if we drop it, we'll have "Master pancake".  So that's what we did, one painful step at a time.  Sort of a heave-ho type of thing and it sucked but we did it!!!! i actually helped!!! i mean i helped, i know i did, cause i am sore today from lifting!! =)  It's a good sore and we're super happy to have it up here!!

The thing is, the TV wouldn't sell for more than a couple of dollars but it's still a nice TV and it was just sitting down there wasting away.  Our living room TV took a poo and why buy one when we had one in our own home?  So WIN.  =)

The best thing for me about yesterday was the feeling of being used as a real slave, a working useful slave.  When so often i am not feeling well and hurting, i am not able to participate as i feel i should or could.  Yesterday i was able to be helpful and not feel too badly afterward.  All around, it was just a good productive day!

While we were having a good day, let it be said that we were not uninformed.  We were thinking about those who are hurting, so very heartbroken and devastated by the tornado in Oklahoma.  i wish we had the resources to send lots of money to help.  Apparently that's what they need more than anything, the red-cross is asking for cash.


Peace to you and yours, especially those of you in Oklahoma.

MD's treasure 

The Reveal!

Well, we did it and it was spectacular!  

Needless to say or needles to say, hahaha... i was nervous.  We went to bed early-ish for us the night before so i could get a good night's sleep, just like the tattoo artist recommended.  i got up fairly early and got ready for the day.  Master and i were pretty excited to get going so we actually sorta left on time!! YAY us!

It was supposed to be a rainy nasty day but it was beautiful and sunny! =)  We had a nice drive out of town and Master stopped for a soda and suggested we get a sandwich to split.  They said it would be best to eat before the tattoo, he just said i should have a "full tank" and be well rested.  The thought of eating just turned my tummy but as usual, Master was right.  Once i finished my sandwich, i really did feel better.

So we finally arrived at the shop after a bit of unexpected traffic in Iowa City.  Now keep in mind that Master and i gave him a fairly specific concept but we also said that the artist was welcome to take some artistic license to make our "dreams come true", so to speak.  We walked into (big plug incoming) Crossroads Tattoo in Coralville, IA and were welcomed in the same manner we were welcomed the first time we were there.  Incredibly friendly and i was immediately at ease.  The waiting area is exactly that, a waiting area with comfortable couches and music playing.  There are private rooms for every single tattoo and or piercing.

So Steve comes out with our design.  He said he went off our "check list" and he said he made sure he fit everything in that we asked for, but this was so much more.  While yes it was our idea, he took a concept and brought her to life!

In His Chains i Am Free To Fly

i just have to say thank you to Steve and Becca for being so amazing to work with and for the awesome work that Steve did on my first tattoo.  i am certain when it's time for a second we'll be back with bells on!!  Of course the bells might be attached to cuffs! =p



i also want to thank Master for all the awesome treats yesterday!!! He said i was a good girl and took me out for a lovely supper.  Once we got back into town He even took me out for ice cream for dessert!!! It was just a perfect day all around!!! Plus I got new shoes!!! ~Master

Thank You Master!! i love You

Your, pt 



    

An Exciting Day!!

Yesterday, Master had a doctor appointment out of town. Seeing that we've been shopping for a tattoo artist, it only made sense to check out the artists in the area while we were there.  The main shop we were interested in and had been looking at on line was a bit of a disappointment.  We were greeted by a fella who i was honest with about being a complete newb when it comes to tattoos.  While we've done some research, this would be my first one and Master has a small one that He got a very long time ago.  We were really looking for a warm welcome and maybe someone who would give us the basics of where to start and how things would all play out.  Mostly, this guy was knob and made me nervous and he was totally condescending. So okay, pressing on.

It was way past time for lunch and we never do this but we decided to hit Olive Garden for lunch.  It was an awesome idea.  We had a great meal a fun waitress who introduced us to a bartender to had just gotten a rockin' new tattoo.  He sent us to a shop where we met Mr. Wikipedia on Tattoos.  Now this guy was fine but we learned a lot and we learned a couple of good things.  Mostly this guy sort of brought us back to reality (his reality) and let us know that everything we wanted just might not be possible for the size we wanted for the amount of money we wanted to spend.  All good things to hear.

So we left a little dejected and Master said that we should try one more place.  i really had a good feeling about the place when we walked in.  Everything about it was just perfect but the bad thing is... this was the guy that the Olive Garden bartender said... "oh he's booked out 2 months in advance".  Bleh.  Well it was no wonder, the place was really nice.  All the rooms are private, the receptionist was super friendly, just perfect.  Well, what the heck, lets look around at what they have.

While we're looking around, the tattoo artist happens to walk through and has time to talk to us right then.  After a nice long chat he said we could indeed have everything we wanted, he even drew it out there in front of us. Unfortunately though, he said that he was indeed booked up through July.  Well that won't really work for us, it would take a good 2 weeks out of swimming season and pool season is just too short already in Iowa.  We said that we would wait till fall and just call then, we'd waited that long already, it wasn't a big deal. =)  We meant it, it wasn't a big deal, we were sure we'd found our guy, we would wait.

Just when we were sure we would have to wait, he flipped the page and you could clearly see eraser marks on Friday.  He got this huge grin and said.... "ohhh i forgot, i had a lady cancel on me this Friday!"  Master just looked at me with a raised eyebrow and asked me if i needed to sit down.  HaHa!!  Neither one of us were really prepared for it to be that soon as we both were in the "we're still looking phase".  We both knew that there was always that slim possibility that someone might offer to do it right away, you just never know.  He did say it was going to take him several hours to draw it up and we'd be in contact prior to the session for approval of the drawing.  So Master and i are both very comfortable with the process.

It seems like a lot of money to spend on something so small but i hope in the end it's worth it and that we're both in love with the finished product. =)

We were totally exhausted by the time we finally made it home.  Master had about 2 or 3 hours of sleep and i had more than He did and i was still falling asleep in the car on the ride home!  It was a great day with lots of excitement! =)

Peace to you and yours,

MD's treasure

From Box To Cage

Out with the old and in with the new!

Master needs a new desk in a big bad way.  The den we have is over crowded and over---everything!  It's just stuffed to the gills with computers, printers, DVDs, CDs, DVD players, Rewriters, cameras... wow the list is longer than i thought!!!  i bet if you put all these cords end to end you'd have nearly a half a mile of cord! =p  OK, i exaggerate but you get my drift?

As Master was talking about building the desk and drawing the plans i suggested making the desk as large as possible to accommodate all His equipment.  That would mean removing the box from the den.  Neither one of us are really crazy about that idea for obvious reasons.  Master custom built that to fit me in every way and we use it.  The box would have to go downstairs in the dungeon we're creating, it would still be used just not as much.  So *i* said... You know, if You took this desk all the way to the wall, You could build a cage underneath!  =)

Master's ears perked up and as the wheels started to spin the design of the desk changed rapidly!!!  The cage will only be large enough for me to sit up and if i want to lie down i'll have to curl up.  He measured me in a reasonably comfortable position and i'll be able to spend lots of time in Master's cage for His slave! =)

The cage will come later, first the desk, as it's the priority.  Our home doesn't function well when Master doesn't have His computer.  His computer is pretty much the nucleus of our home. =)

After Master decided to incorporate the cage into the new desk, i found it comical that i would suggest such a thing.  i didn't really think it through of course, i thought it would be perfect size and it would be all fluffy there would be pillows and i would have all the room in the world.  Master of course immediately took it a bit further as He's prone to do! He had me lie down and curl up as tight as i possibly could.  i smiled as i thought to myself ... "duh, it's a cage silly, not a resort".  Even still, i'm looking forward to spending time, locked up right next to Master.

Peace to you and yours,

MD's treasure   

Master's Meme

i thought i would participate in this meme i saw in blogland!  This one is about Master!

1. He's sitting in front on the TV, what is on the screen?
You never can tell with Him, if it's summertime, there's a good chance, it's a Cardinal's game!

2. You're out to eat, what kind of dressing does He get?
Ranch dressing.

3. The most striking thing about His physical appearance?
His beard and His hands! =)

4. You go out to eat and have a drink, what does He order?
Water, Diet Mt. Dew or Diet Dr. Pepper

5. Where did He go to high school?
The local High School here.

6. What shoe size does He wear?
The size changes depending on the shoe but either a 9 or 9.5

7. If He were to collect anything, what would it be?
Master has lots of collections so this one is difficult, or very easy because He loves sports memorabilia and souvenirs.  i'm going to say His most prized collection was/is His Kyle Petty NASCAR collection.  He used to be a huge fan when Kyle was racing. We don't watch racing anymore, Master sort of loved racing because He had a driver to root for, but it was awesome while it lasted! =)  

8. What is His favorite type of sandwich?
Pork Tenderloin is His "go to sammich".  Lately though He's trying to go green and by that i mean much healthier.  So turkey or turkey/ham mix, it's a work in progress! =)

9. What is His favorite cereal?
Anything fruity!

10. What would He never wear?
Socks and sandals or sandals at all! He hates them so hard.
 
11. What is His favourite sports team?
The Minnesota Vikings, The St. Louis Cardinals, The Florida Gators and The Louisville Cardinals. 
 
12. Who did He vote for in the last election?
 President Obama.

 
13. What is something you do that He wishes you wouldn't do?
Waste food.  There's almost nothing He hates more than wasting food.  If something gets pushed to the back of the frig and goes bad, He has a conniption fit.  It's my job to remind Him of left overs and if i forget about them, He gets furious, like for real.  =(


14. You bake a cake for His birthday, what kind?
Brownies with white frosting.Master's favorite dessert is MORE MEAT. =p
 
15. What is His heritage?
 i'm not sure and i don't know if we're allow to ask!  If i had to take a guess i would say German.

16. Did He play sports in high school?
This is sort of a guess, i think He played football in middle school, messed up His knee and they told Him He couldn't play again.  He found out years later He could have played just fine.... it was all a buncha bull? Pretty sure that's the story.  Anywho, He also played softball for years and years and that was through church.

17. What could He spend hours doing? 
Tons of things, building things, surfing the web, playing games, working... once Master's involved in something, it's hard to get His mind off the project.

18. What is one unique talent He has?
Electronics, if there's a will there's a way and He'll figure it out.  i can always walk away saying "You'll figure it out, You always do" and have complete faith in that statement, because He always does, always. =)  

This one might be hard for Master to read because He likes to see the facts exactly as they were or are.  Don't be surprised if you see a long comment from Him correcting my mistaken facts! He might just let it go, sometimes He shocks me!

i hope you're all having a happy Thursday!

Peace to you and yours,

MD's treasure

i "Flipping" Messed Up!

Since Master pierced my septum i have been flipping the piercing every time we see Master's Dad just out of respect for him.  He just wasn't being very nice about it and said that he would be nasty to anyone who had a piercing like that or anyone who got a tattoo.  It's been sort of an on-going conversation with Master's Dad for a while now.

Due to his unrelenting attitude about body modification we didn't want to rush into telling him that Master had already pierced my septum.  However, i couldn't keep flipping the piercing every time we see Master's family as we see them often and sometimes for many, many hours at a time.  The larger my jewelry gets the more difficult it will be to flip so last night when he was here for dinner i told him that i've actually had the piercing for quite a while.  i also gently informed him that the next time he saw me, i would have the ring down and it wouldn't change me a bit, i would just have "new jewelry".  Lastly, i told him that he wasn't going to be mean to me because i've always been very good to him and he knew everything i'd just said was true.

Master's Dad just left here after dropping off some clothes racks for the yard sale and i had the piercing down.  He looked right at my nose and didn't mention it at all.  In fact, he just asked me to do him a favor.  We talked for several minutes and he was very pleasant and he left.

i know he's not happy and i'm sure he'll talk to whoever will listen about my "stupid nose ring", but so long as he's not nasty to me, i'm okay. =)

Now..... i really screwed up with Master.  When i was telling His Dad about the piercing, Master told me to flip it down last night during the meal and Master's Dad shook his head "no", so i didn't.  Master told me to flip it down several times and i didn't do it.  i am in trouble, to say the least.

It was a horrible feeling knowing that Master's Dad wasn't ready have it sprung on him like that and at the same time disobeying Master's direct order.  i haven't been punished yet, i will be, there's no doubt about that! Ugh!

So while i feel a huge sense of relief knowing that i won't be hiding the piercing anymore, including in front of Master's sister and brother-in-law (if we see them again)... bleh more family issues! i feel a sense of doom and serious disappointment in myself.  i don't know that i've ever so blatantly disobeyed Him like that and it's the most uncomfortable, nasty feeling in the world.  i don't even have a word to describe this feeling, but it's nothing good or fluffy or fun.

There is no "up side" to disobeying your Master.  You know we have a rule in place just for this type of thing, no one was going to die, i don't care who i thought was right or wrong.  i should have obeyed His order, no questions asked.  No one's life was in peril and no one was going to be hurt and there wasn't going to be any catastrophic damage to anything or anyone.  i really messed up this time, what was i thinking?

Don't do as i do, okay!?!? =)

MD's treasure

  

Tattoos!!

Whoever thought deciding on what to get for a tattoo would be so darn hard?  Not to mention where to get one!! It's not so much "where" but WHO to have do the tattoo??? i know we are being much to picky, but after all, it IS permanent!!

i hate being wishy-washy but i have seen so many amazing tattoos that i want it to be beautiful and perfect!!! HA!  i think Master might be rubbing off on me a little.  =)

Back to the drawing board!  If onllllyyyy i could actually draw this would be so much easier! =)

Today i am working in the garage on the yard sale, only.. i haven't actually made it out there yet!  OOPS!  Heh... better run.

Happy Monday!

MD's treasure

Sunny Sunday

Yesterday i did a load of whites.  The basic items, socks, bras and undies.  For me a load of whites also contains girdles and slips.  i love my whites, i love the smell of bleach and how it makes the whole house smell. 

Yesterday though, there was just a little difference.  It gave a small sense of normalcy back to our daily routine.  We were home on a Saturday, i was doing the laundry, Master had the baseball game on, i was just cleaning up the house, and things seem like they are just starting to take shape. 

Master went to hop in the shower and i had my girdles and bras hung over the shower to dry, as it's been raining non-stop, i wasn't able to put them outside to dry.  He exclaimed in a bit of a feigned disgust that He couldn't stand the clutter hanging on the shower!!! HA!! He really doesn't like it when i hang things on the shower, unless it's girdles and bras and believe me, there were lots of them!! hehehe!!

This is a few hours later and i'm just now getting this posted after starting it earlier today.  Master and i have had a busy but productive day.  Today was the first sunny day we've had in a long time and we made the most of it!  Now it's almost time for supper and TV! YAY!

Happy Sunday everyone!

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Date Night And Other Surprises

Yesterday Master told me that He would be taking me on a date!  Normally when He springs things on me like that, i'm completely unprepared and thrown for a loop!  Yesterday was no different, ha!  So i went into action, getting clothes ready for us both, ironed a dress for me and a shirt for Master, well for me i ironed two dresses... sigh!! i have two dresses that look nearly identical, one is just a couple sizes smaller than the other, when i went to put it on, i was stunned to realize i ironed the wrong dress!  That was riiiight after i had put the ironing board and all the trimmings away blargh!!!

So we're finally out the door and on our way after lots of puttering around.  i still have no idea where we're going, i simply know we're going on a date!  We haven't been out for quite some time so this is going to be fun!  Master turns the opposite way of "town" so now i know it will be about an hour away, the other way out of town.  This is a nice change of pace and neither one of us know the area very well.

Yesterday was unseasonably warm and a gorgeous day!  We had a lovely drive, just chatting about nothing in particular and i sort of thought we'd be heading right to the restaurant.  Master headed to a downtown area which was clearly not a restaurant and said "we're here".  huh.  okay then.  Master just said that He wanted to check this place out and i knew right away, it was a tattoo place.  The neat thing about it was, it was a very simple store front, there was no flashing sign that said "tattoo", there were no stencils on the walls, it was just a very large studio with very shiny wood floors and interesting art work on the walls.  One would think you were walking into an art gallery sooner than you'd think it was a tattoo studio.  If that was the look they were going for, then, mission accomplished.

There was only one man there working on someone already and seeing that we were simply there to inquire about some artwork, we didn't want to interrupt but he was more than happy to help.  He said he was almost finished and that we should have a look through the portfolios.  They only do custom work and seeing that we're interested in a custom piece, we were in the right place! =)  In other words, you can't just go in, look at a book and pick out a stencil of a heart with MOM in the middle and have them slap on it on your arm for $50.  You have to have an idea of what you're interested in, they'll draw something for you and they'll use their artistic license and run with it.

Master is much more particular than i am because of course it's permanent but He wants it to be perfect, nothing is ever perfect.  We are going to have to work with people and have an open mind. hehe!!

So after we left the tattoo place, Master took me to the restaurant.  Knowing how much i love froggies, we went to a place with froggies all over the sign, which i didn't even notice right away.  i saw all the froggies inside the restaurant but not on the sign!! DERP!  We were given a table over looking the river and it was lovely!  We had a nice meal and just chatted.

After our dinner Master and i went to the Casino for a little while and lost a little money and had some fun!  i really love the casino, it's a good thing we only play the penny slots! hehe

It was such an awesome night!! Thank You Master!! =)

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Forgeting Is No Excuse

Master came in to wake me up this morning and i stretched out my hand to Him.  He went to pull at my wrist to pull me up and slapped at my wrist.  He startled me when He said, "what's this?" i knew immediately what He meant and i gasped with horror. For the second time in a week, i had forgotten the cuffs!  All He said when He walked out of the room in complete disgust was "you're in for it".  UGH!

i seriously can't give an excuse and "i forgot" doesn't work.  That's all it is, i just forget sometimes and that's totally unacceptable.  Waaahhhh! 

In other news Master and i are working on eating healthier..  We are going to trade in our ground turkey for chicken and i like the chicken better, i think.  We are going back to light mayo and working more veggies, really just the basics.  The best advice we've gotten lately is eating until you're "sated" not until you are full but eat until you aren't hungry any more.  Of course that's really common sense but not as easy as it sounds.  i really don't like to be full at all, it's almost as bad as being hung over.  So i try very hard to avoid it but i do it more often than i would like. 

i stopped drinking because i HATE hung over feeling! Now when i have a drink it of course is with Master's permission and it's very little.

Master and i are getting ready for a garage sale that we're having in a couple weeks.  It's an amazingly beautiful day today! A lovely day to be outside enjoying the weather.

Hope you're all having a lovely day!

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Taking No For An Answer

Master has had a few ailments lately.  Nothing major just a few irritations.  As His nursemaid while He's ill, it's hard for me to know when to take no for an answer.  i know that i try to do too much because when He doesn't feel well i want nothing more than for Him to feel better.  i also know that He hates to take medicine or do things that will improve His health if it's going to be an inconvenience!

Where is that line between the person who knows what is right and the slave?  It's a really thin line and He knows i have to walk it lightly.  When Master's ill i mean really ill and i take care of Him, He's always very thankful and when He's better He thanks me sincerely.  But when He's got an irritation, sometime "i" become the irritation!!! hahaha 

Master is stubborn! =p

Is this just me?

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Taking The Blame

Yesterday i was writing my "Saturday Post" when Master came up behind me and said "how long do you think you're going to be able to get away with posting on Saturday and Sunday before you get in trouble?".  i have to post twice a week at the very least to be within His posting guidelines but He wants me to post more, of course.  i just really sheepishly said "i don't know Master". 

i wish my instant reaction was "i need improvement" instead of "why is He asking for so much at this difficult time?".  i turn things around to make it not my fault and even though i might not verbalize it, i think it, all too often i do verbalize it though. 

Ya know i've known i shouldn't be waiting until the last possible second to write my posts or make grocery lists or plan meals or do the laundry or omgosh the list is a mile long... and so is the list of excuses.  It's really easy to place the blame on someone else or something else when i know i need work.  How come it's so stinkin' hard to just take the blame and do the right thing or at very least, make the effort?  i think that might be the billion dollar question. 

At any rate, my immediate goal is to write earlier and if i don't take the blame or whatever else comes with it!  Next on my list is meal planning and grocery lists.  That's a biggie too!  Any suggestions? =)

i hope you're all having a happy weekend!

Peace to you and yours,

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March Q & A Continued!!

As promised, i am going to try to finish up the March questions if it kills me!

This next question is a three part question.

Q. You've said many times that you wear a girdle, stockings, heels, dress/skirt every day. Do you really enjoy that?

A. This has been a long almost 12 year process.  i didn't start off in an all in one open bottom corselette, stockings and heels... the whole bit right off.  It took a while to get to this point.  Master started me in panty hose or tights because that's what i was used to.  He had me in a long legged panty girdle and now i think if He made me go back to it i would really hate the transition.  Where i'm at right now is so convenient!     

Q. Isn't it uncomfortable?

A. Not at all.  i think it was much more uncomfortable (when i did wear pants) to have the waistband of trousers tight around the waist all day vs. having a free flowing skirt and stockings. 

Q. Do you really want to dress like that for the rest of your life?

A. Yes! Had i been told by Master when i first became His that this would be my style of dress for the rest of my life, i believe i might have panicked.  However, Master didn't just throw clothing on the bed and say "this is it girl".  He certainly could have, but He didn't.  He conditioned me and taught me to have a real appreciation for this style and the feel for this way of dressing.

Some of my favorite things about dressing this way?  The feel of ultra femininity, not just "being ultra feminine" anyone can throw on some make up, a skirt and earrings and be feminine for a day.... heck i did that for years and years but now i feel as though i am able to embody femininity.  It's a very personal thing that i am able carry with me and it's the love for being female.  i love all things silk, the feeling of a beautiful slip, new stockings, new shoes off my closet shelf for the first time, taking earrings off the card or out of the box for the first wear...

All of those things make a day just a little more special but they only add to what i wake up to every day, the knowledge that i'll dress for Him each and every day in the most feminine way possible.  Not only because that's what He expects but because it's also who i've become. So yes i absolutely want to dress like this for the rest of my life.

Thank you very much for the questions.

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Ever Present Dynamic

Last night Master's family came over for supper.  We all sat around, ate too much and had a nice time.  After His sister and i got the kitchen cleaned up, then some of us played a game.  Master's Dad has never been much into games and now that he's getting older the only thing he'll do is play cards.  He can't stay awake long lately anyway, as soon as he finds a chair he falls asleep.  i said to Master's sister last night that i think it's the last year catching up with him, she agreed.

Today is going to be sort of a relaxing day, although i'm going to work and so is Master, we won't be under pressure to get the house straightened and supper made by a certain time.  That alone will be nice, we've been having Master's Dad over on Sunday nights for supper but tonight he has other plans.  He's no trouble, all he does is eat and snooze. =)

Although our dynamic is ever present, if you know us and have read here for any length of time, you know that about us. However we haven't done much other than go from day to day as Master/slave.  With everything that's happened there just hasn't been an opportunity for anything else.  We are both looking forward to a time when things slow down and we're able to move ahead with "us".  There is a room in the basement that has always been used as a game room.  At some point in the not too distant future Master hopes to convert that to a dual use room.  There is a pool table in that room that will come out which will leave lots of room for other elements of torture.  It's my understanding that this room should be a play room/dungeon... isn't that really what a dungeon is anyway? hahaha

We rarely if ever have visitors in our basement and if we do we'll have to take measure to be sure that whatever we have down that can be converted into somewhat vanilla looking items.  However that will be done, i have no idea! haha =)

i wanted to say thank you for the questions in March.  However, there are still one or two i believe i never got back to due to the timing.  i apologize for that, thank you for understanding, i will finish them this week.

Peace to you and yours,

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Humiliation

The other morning i disappointed Master.  He cuffed my hands behind my back and told me to get up on my knees from my stomach and it was fairly impossible for me.  He laughed at me of course, while watching me struggle to get in position.  He did try to help me a little but mostly He just laughed.  i am certain that someone 50 pounds lighter than me could have done it with no trouble at all, for me though, it was all but impossible and i'm not sure i ever got there.  All He said was that i should be ashamed.  In the process i was slightly injured in a couple different ways, but mostly i was ashamed and embarrassed and humiliated.

i don't "do" humiliation very well.  i don't say that with any amount of self respect or pride, i'll guarantee you.  At this stage of the game, i should be better at accepting pretty much whatever Master has to throw my way but for whatever reason, i don't deal with humiliation very well.  i am sensitive to things He says to me and i don't take them as being humiliation i am hurt.  It's a mind game i'm not good at yet.

i realize that there are many benefits of humiliation where in i could be stripped of more and more control.  When needed i can be knocked down a peg or ten.  i just need to learn how to take it and not let it "hurt" me.  That's where i really struggle, like so much so that i don't know how to get past the initial "ouch".

This is my cross to bear, if you will, because i realize that He'll train me or use me in any way He wishes and i will have to learn to deal with the effects.  In some ways, for me it's good to know that i have no choice because if i thought i had a say in the matter or i might be able to worm my way out of one way of training or another, i think i'd try.  How's that for an admission for you?  It's true though, i really think that if i could inch my way out of something i might try and i'm glad i can't.  Sometimes being up against the wall, is the best place for me.  =)

i have been really having a hard time writing, i hope i'm working through that....

We're having Master's Dad and sister's family down tonight for supper.  i just took 10 minutes to jot this down so i didn't break yet another rule.

i hope everyone is well in blog land!

Peace to you and yours,

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Getting Back to Normal

i suppose it goes without saying that this has been a difficult week.  For the most part Master has been doing well, but as expected there have been ups and downs.  i think it's going to be on me to realize that He will deal with His grief much differently than i did. 

When we got home the other night Master closed the garage door and sort of dramatically said that we were going to have to live a new life, a life without His Mom.  He's been strong and weak, He's been sad and grief ridden, He's been everything that i would expect Him to be.  One thing that He's been struggling with is being happy, just the act of laughing.  i know exactly what He meant when He asked me if i felt guilty for laughing and having fun right after my Mom died.  i did, i felt terribly guilty and He feels the same way.  It wasn't until someone just flat out told me that it was okay to laugh and of course i knew it, of course i know that life goes on and that my life wasn't supposed to end just because hers did, i just needed to hear it.  So that's what i said to Master.  He knew it too and perhaps He didn't need to hear it like i did but it's all i knew to say, so i said it.

For me, i am relieved for the whole family but most especially, i am relieved for her.  She just suffered for too long and Master's Dad was suffering along with her.  i know there is a part of this that makes no sense but His suffering is over too, partially.  He has to suffer through missing her now though.

The one thing that we have learned through all of this is who you can really count on in your family and friends.  As always there are people who are there like the rocks you can always count on and there are ones who will let you down no matter what you hope for.  There are even those who surprise you in the middle of tragedy, they stir up trouble.  It's the same in every family i'm sure, it's just always a shock to me, i guess.

i'm am so thankful to the rocks in our lives and to the trouble makers, i hope they are able to find peace in their lives.

i apologize for the scattered blog posts.  Things are getting back to normal and i'll be back posting on a more regular basis.  Thanks for hanging in here with me!

Peace to you and yours,

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You're Never Ready

This post will be short, shorter than i want it to be because i have a lot to say and almost no time to write.  i'm not sure where to begin.  It began as a routine call that we'd gotten so many times before.  This time however, it ended the way we always knew it one day would.

Master's Dad called and said that the nursing home called and said that they were taking Master's Mom to the hospital because she was having some sort of a "spell".  i was working at the time and like i said, thought it was a routine call.  When the phone rang five minutes later and it was the nursing home, saying Master's Dad shouldn't be alone, we knew it wasn't going to be anything routine.

Only a few hours later we were all sitting in the ICU, she was surrounded by her kids, even her son made it in from 900 miles away in only a few short hours.  We were holding her hands and said our goodbyes as we watched her slip away.  It doesn't matter how long she'd been sick or how many months we've been preparing for this moment, we never would have been ready.

Master is a strong Man and He'll be okay, except when He's not and when He's not, i'll be there to hold Him up.  She wasn't just my Mother in law she was my friend and i have missed having my friend since she had her stroke.  i'll miss her very much, we all will.

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