This week hasn't been great, it hasn't been terrible but there are just times when Master and i don't gel. Master put it pretty well the other night when He said that no matter if i think He's right i am going to learn, He is right in all situations. Unless something detrimental will happen i need to sit back and learn how to say "yes Master" in all situations, no matter what.
Trouble is, i'm not good at that. When i know i'm right, i don't want to see Him fail or i don't want to see something go wrong. The other thing is, i'm not good and trying things a different way, i want to try things "the way i know". Doing something a different way is not only confusing to me but it's stepping out of my comfort zone. The thing is that doesn't matter to Master, what it says to Master is, i am being disobedient. It's saying to Master and i am digging my feet in and saying "i must do it my way". The point is, it doesn't matter why i'm doing it, what matters to Him is that i'm doing it at all. i have to learn to step out of my own little world and completely into His.
We've been together long enough for me to know that no matter how hard i think i'm trying, i need to do things His way. It's much easier said than done. In the heat of the moment, all i see is that i'm trying to help or i'm trying to "do the right thing". What am i really doing? i'm trying to take over. i'm trying to do *my* thing, not His. i never EVER see it until it's too late, He's already mad and i'm already confused about why he's mad.
Even though our relationship is built on TPE we are still human and we make mistakes. There will never be a time when everything will be perfect, all we can do is keep trying. What amazes me is our ability to bounce back and get back on the horse. i know i still have so much to learn and every time we go through something like this i learn a little more about Master and i learn more about my place.
i have to learn that i'll never stop learning His way. i don't know it all and my way might be right some of the time, i know that Master does value my opinion on some things. He just needs me to remember my place. It's really easy for me to get over zealous.
Peace to you and yours,
MD's treasure
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On Being A "Professional" Master/slave
We've never, ever wanted to be mistaken for any of the countless people who claim to be a Master or slave when in reality, they just pretend for money. There's potentially a fine line in other folks' perception, and I've gone to considerable effort to never cross that line. My treasure writes here because she enjoys it, she loves to get and reply to comments and she also does it because I require it. In the beginning, it was a blog, nothing more, nothing less. In the last few years, it has become not only a blog, but also a hub for all of our online activity. Some of that activity is done simply for fun, some of it is to feed some sort of narcissistic need for kudos that I still deny having, and some of it is done to try to supplement our income by sharing our real life with others who might be willing to toss a few bucks our way for a small window into our normal activities. Normal for us but mere fantasies to them, things that they can't get at home or simply things that get their blood flowing south. Like most people, we started out never showing our faces, never being specific about where we live, blah blah blah. One day, I decided that I was tired of acting like I was ashamed of Myself or My girl, just so someone I knew wouldn't find a photo that would make them all butt hurt because of their own insecurities and closed-mindedness. In a very short time, we had started making videos and posting non-anonymous pictures all over the place. Eventually, My girl started doing live cam sessions for cash and it's become a multifaceted "business". That's why we're making this page. I didn't want it on the front page of the blog because this is still her blog, and always will be, but we wanted to add a page for some of the money-making things that we do.
About two years ago, we decided to test the waters with Kindle publishing. For a nominal fee of 99 cents a month, you can get this blog automatically delivered to your Kindle. Unfortunately, this makes it less likely for My girl to get the comments that she so loves, so if you decide to go the Kindle route, please come back here later to leave that comment you were thinking about!
Lately, we've had gentlemen ask if it was possible to buy My treasure's worn stockings. If worn stockings is what you seek, then we are happy to oblige. We've charged very reasonable amounts in the past, and that won't change. Pricing will depend entirely on quantity, color, availability, your location and any other variables or requests. We get her stockings from Europe, and we only order a few times a year, so we may have limited color options at any given time. If you're interested in My girl's worn stockings, or any other requests for that matter, please email her directly at precioustreasure_md@yahoo.com. We've done custom videos and would also be happy to do custom photosets. If it turns you on, and you think we can provide it, please don't hesitate to ask.
About 2 and a half years ago, we also decided to start making videos for sale. We've had a banner on the front page, but we've never really promoted it at all. Well, I'm not really going to promote it too much here either, but if you'd like to check out our clips, you can find them here. You can also find some of them here.
My treasure has also started working as a cam girl on ImLive. There's a banner on the front for this as well, but you can also click here or on the banner below to find her over there or schedule a meeting with her.
Banners here also!
It can be so hard to re-learn that their way is "the way," especially when you are sure you're right! Guess the learning curve never ends.
ReplyDeleteYou're right lil, the worst thing might even be when i see Him doing something that i know is wrong and might cause Him grief later. There is a fine line of when to speak up even after being told to shut my mouth.
ReplyDeleteUnless something really bad is going to happen it's better to just sit back and shut my mouth but whew that's hard, isn't it? Not like it happens a ton either, but even once is too much. Seeing anyone you love fail is miserable, being ordered to "let" them make a mistake and not intervene is torture.