i was just browsing through Fet Life and i found a a thread about Phobias this younger girl was asking what type of phobias people have that prevent them from playing at what they might otherwise enjoy. Many of the posts were worded in this way "I have a fear of drowning, so any breath play is a no go" or "I am severely claustrophobic, so there is no way I can ever do anything with hoods" and so on. You know what struck me at the core? The ones who are owned, they have a choice? Now of course i am not so blind or silly to think that everyone is the same or that everyone lives the way we do but i was never EVER given a choice. i know that many submissives and even slaves are given more leeway and or rights than others in all sorts of areas. Of any area at all, this might be the one area where my rights were overlooked and stripped first and to this day it's where i learned some serious conditioning. i will say this, because of those first days in the hood, i am now able to spend time in the hood without severe panic. When i see that hood laying about the house, knowing i will be wearing soon, it is most likely the most powerful reminder of who is in charge of my life and that at any time He can easily disregard my phobias whatever they may be.
i was born with asthma, i'm scared to death that i won't get my next breath, that's all part of the hood as well, the stale air, now when i have the hood on, He's quick about putting it on and He's made some very serious intentions to try to make me as comfortable as possible. He has not in anyway ever let on that the hood will no longer be a part of His bondage practice, however. Since we've been together He's bought at least two or three more and this Christmas i actually was given a hood as a gift and it was a gift i truly loved. It meant that i was growing and it was a beautiful soft luxurious leather that when He put it on, smelled wonderful and felt good.
Even though i told Master i was afraid, that i was claustrophobic, He showed me the hood and basically said, "get over it". There are millions of people who are afraid of billions of things, had the shoe been on the other foot, i never would have gotten away with anything of the sort. It wasn't and He did. He will continue to get away with it and no matter what type of phobias i have i will continue to have to "get over it". i'm afraid of traffic and bridges, there's no way He'll let me live in a cave.
All i know is that i won't be able to call the shots and say that one thing or another is a no no because it's something that i don't care for. i've never liked the term, hated it even, but how is that not topping from the bottom? i realize everyone has rights and everyone has limits but just using these blanket statements, i will NOT! do this! no way! Seriously? How about a little wiggle room?
Master bought me a Ring POP! tonight and He told me that when we got home i could put it on His Willie and suck it.... What's the matter with Him? Weirdo =p
Peace to you and yours,
MD's treasure
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As on of the slaves you mention that has some "wiggle" room, this post made me think. One of my biggest fears always...is topping from the bottom...or appearing to top from the bottom. So with Goddess I've mostly kept my phobias and fears to myself. Luckily her interests and phobias are similiar to mine and there aren't too many "no-no's" of mine that I have to fret...there are a few I often think about though...
ReplyDeleteHmm...maybe it's different for me because I'm not a submissive. I'm not a slave. I kind of dabble on both sides as the mood suits me.
ReplyDeleteThe nature of my relationships, when I'm more on the submissive side (maybe more of a bottom than a submissive), it's a lot about what I enjoy. It's in part a trust issue. It's in part because I really just don't enjoy pain. Still, it's an entirely different situation.
However, on the grand scheme of phobias, I have to say, that's a one of the best ways I can think of to get over a fear. In a situation where there's trust it can be a very scary, but intense way to overcome those fears. Having no option but just "get over it" is very empowering! It can be incredibly freeing to be able to move beyond your fears. I wish more people could find themselves in a position of such great trust to overcome what they fear.