Master Knows Best

This has been quite a week for me and seeing that i abhor writing strictly about headache issues, i am finding almost nothing to write about. So here i am writing about my absolute least favorite subject. It's boring to my readers and i feel like a complainer but unfortunately it's my life.

Each small task i complete is a victory for me when things get this bad. Keeping the animals fed, making dinner, keeping the dishes done and the kitchen cleaned up. Even my daily shower is a win and i think the only way i do it is to just not think about it. i can't count how many times i wanted to throw in the towel and just go to the emergency room. It's something i avoid at all costs and normally i don't even let it enter my mind, this week though it was almost like the gold pot at the end of the nightmare. So far i haven't caved and taking it one day at a time, i won't.

When my head gets this bad, i do everything wrong. i can't say the right things, my mouth is smart and i forget myself. i don't forget that i am owned but i certainly step out of line more often than is acceptable. You might think that i should be given some lei weigh for the pain that i'm in, "cut her some slack", right? Sure and He does but how much slack and for how long? If i am given too much slack and for an undetermined amount of time it might be difficult for Him to quickly get me right back under His thumb!

It's hard for me to understand how He could ask me to do some tasks when i'm hurting. It's not like i have to go shovel rock or paint the house but over the years i've come to understand His reasoning more and more. If He lets me off the hook too much i'll quit trying and i know i will, i won't make supper, i will let the laundry pile up until there's nothing to wear and i'll use every excuse possible. i would rather He be harder on me than i think He should be than let me off. i don't want it when i'm hurting, but i know that's best for me. =)

i'll be back writing about better more uplifting things next week, i swear! Until then, have a great Sunday evening. Enjoy the probowl.

Peace to you and yours,

MD's treasure

Are You Sure?

Today i was doing a little bit of blog surfing and i started thinking about my own personal slavery. There are times that Master will say that i need a reminder of who i am. Those are the times when i know my mouth perhaps has gotten a little too loud or too harsh (i never swear) or perhaps i've said to Him "You need to..." instead of "Don't forget to..." or something so simple as saying "Yes Master" in a nice clear voice and meaning it! i'll never stop needing reminders of my own slavery, i always need to be put back in my place after all this time.

Sometimes He micromanages me because that's what i need. Every once in a while He praises me because that's what i deserve. Sometimes when i try really hard to look good for Him and i miss the mark i get disappointed that's life. i'm His slave and i keep trying. Other times when i'm just getting dressed for the day, He loves how i look! Win. =)

Being able to call myself a slave to Master is huge, i'm not sure i "do" anything more in my life. Being His slave is what i do. i didn't just wake up one day and decide that i was going to become submissive or slave-like however. i'm not saying submission can't be learned, i am simply saying that's not how it happened for me. It was a life long process, one that i wasn't even fully aware of until i was an adult. Asking Master for His collar and becoming His slave has been a beautiful journey.

Which is why when i see these brand new blogs saying "I'm a slave" "I even did the laundry last week and didn't yell at him once" or "I let him screw me last night". i have such a hard time not posting and saying that they are making a mockery of our lifestyle. i have said many times that one of the things i love so much about this lifestyle is that there are no rules. It is what we make it so all i want to say is take some time, think about it before you jump in both feet first! Read, learn, talk to people, talk to each other and then read some more. How or why does this effect me? An uneducated person reads that particular blog and thinks "oh okay, that's what it's like to be a slave, i can do that!".... NOOO waiiiiiiiiit!!!!

Now i am in no way saying that people new to the lifestyle shouldn't post a blog or write about their new journey. The only thing i am saying is starting out this life armed with such little knowledge is what is so difficult to see. Before you so readily give each other a title, do your research and build up a good firm foundation of trust. For me it was reading a couple of journals, there were only a few really good ones back then. i was glued to my computer screen learning how those slaves lived their lives with their Masters. It was then that i learned how much work it would be, mentally more than physically really. More than anything i think it was by educating myself, reading more about the lifestyle, more about actual slavery did i learn what it was i wanted to be for Master. i saw what this life "could" be, i saw the dedication and that's what i wanted to become. Ten years later, i'm still not there yet, but some day i will be.

Master was clear on His expectations of me and what my physical transformation would be. i came equipped with the foundation of a submissive mind and heart. What i placed upon myself were expectations of what i believe Master's perfect slave could be. i only learned that though through time and self education. i will never be perfect, but at least i'll always keep trying and i will always have tons to learn.

i count on my fellow bloggers, readers and those who comment. i learn from each one of you. Well, except the spam comments, i don't speak Arabic! =p

Peace to you and yours,

MD's treasure

His number one

So i was just on Skype with my sister and we were having a nice chat. We haven't used Skype since she was in the UK and it's always fun to see what she's got going on in her house. Her husband was out of the house running some errands and she was taking the computer around showing me a few things. She's always weird when he comes home and we're on the phone the second he walks in, she has to hang up. Today he got home and immediately we had to stop our Skype call, like the computer was on fire, that call had to stop! If i didn't know better i would say she's not allowed to talk to me. i do know better though and i know she's allowed to talk to me. It's just weird, the whole thing. So i am very much shoved in the back seat and honestly her husband should take precedence over me, he's her partner in life. It's just that he's her third husband and we've been down this road before. That really doesn't matter though does it?

Then i got to thinking, eh it stings to be tossed in the back seat like an old rag because she's my sister but where do i need to be? Where do i want to be? i want to be in the in the front seat (if you will) right along side Master. As long as i'm always His number one i'm okay being third, fourth or whatever to everyone else. i need friends and other relationships and i want to be needed by others but it's not what i live for. That always has to be kept in perspective. No matter how close i am with anyone else it's Master's love and company i can't do without and He is the one that will always fill that void.

Master has plans tonight to watch a football game so i better get in gear and figure out snacks for the game! That and an outfit for the game, those are my two roles for a football game, snacks and candy, eye-candy that is. ;)

Peace to you and yours,

MD's treasure

What's In A Word?

"Just had a very interesting conversation with my Master. It led to me wondering, to all of you slaves, how many of you recognize the power you have?"

That is a post directly from Fet Life.

Master asked me to read the thread and perhaps weigh in on the thread itself. i just read through the entire thread and i think it's up to more than 120 posts now. There is a reason i don't post much on Fet. i do have an opinion, but from what i could see people were being TORN APART for sharing their opinions. One similar to mine might make me the Anti... well anyway. i don't mind having my opinion challenged as i know that i'm not perfect. There just seems to be no limit to what people won't go to in order to make themselves heard and no self censorship, anything goes.


So i thought i would make my post here, where it's relatively safe!

Let me first say that it appeared to me was that as soon as any slave heard or read the word itself "power" because of who we are conditioned to be the stigma that follows that word, lead to complete and utter tunnel vision. The general consensus was that no matter what, these people had no power, period, end of story.

The word itself doesn't have to have nor does it carry with it negative connotations that so many of the posters immediately seemed to identify with. i am going to concede right here and now that i myself am in a Total Power Exchange Relationship with my Master! If you ask 100 different people what that means you will most likely get 100 varied answers. What "power" means to people is nearly inexplicable. Asking the question that the OP asked was a good one but also nearly impossible to answer, it's also one that in my opinion need not cause so much anger and anguish.

Every individual has a certain element of power no matter what stage they are in their lives, even a committed slave. Lets say for the sake of argument that i was completely stripped of every shred of human power when i entered into this relationship with Master. How then if given a task by Master, to call the electric company and see about an upcharge on our bill that just shouldn't be there. i am to negotiate with these people and get the charge reduced or even removed. If i have no power, if i am told exactly what to do and how to do it with instruction only from Master then i have no idea how to negotiate on my own. i would be lost in this situation, would i not? For the woman who works outside of the home, who has specific skills those of which her Husband or Master knows nothing about. How is that power stripped? It's not. Power doesn't have to be bad. He's given you the permission, this is something He wants from you.

For Master and i who spend nearly every waking moment together, we work together in and out of the home and inevitably there have been some areas where He tells me to take the lead. For instance when His mother was in the nursing home. That was for lack of a better phrase my area of expertise. i didn't hold it over anyone it was simply something i knew about. Just because you may have to take the lead in some ways doesn't mean that the Master doesn't own just as much of you as he always has. It doesn't diminish the power exchange in any way shape or form. What it might do is say how comfortable He is in His role to allow you to fly a bit because He knows you won't go far without Him. Master knows that even when i am "flying a bit" i'll always ask for His help. Just as when He's in complete and utter control He'll ask my opinion. He doesn't always take it but He likes to hear what i have to say, all the same.

This near panic at the thought of slaves having power was an eye opener for me, helping me see that i need to be more open minded myself. i know that i have zero power "over" Master. As a person though there is nothing to be ashamed of in being a good partner, wife and slave to Master, i have all the "power" He wants and needs me to have.

Peace to you and yours,

MD's treasure

How many slips do you have and what do they look like? Are they half slips or full slips? What colors and how long are they?

At the moment i have an entire drawer in my lingerie dresser dedicated to slips. i could actually flow over to another drawer as i've acquire more. Without emptying the drawer and counting them i can't tell you exactly how many i have. Here is what i know for sure for colors; i have white, black, navy, cream, nude and one mint green. i have both half and full slips and for the most part they are standard slips with a small amount of lace at the bottom. i have found that the more lace a slip has, the less likely it is to stand up to many washings. The fancier a slip is, the less it was intended to be worn. As i wear my slips every day, most of them are quite lovely, very silky but simple so they'll stand up to many washings.

Last year Master ordered two slips for me from Amish people in Pennsylvania. Oddly enough the silkier of the two has become one of my very favorite undergarments. It's soft, unbelievably silky, cool in the summer time, warm in the winter and i just hate it when i have to launder it! This Christmas He bought me a full slip from the same people, made of that same material. i can't begin to tell you how much i love that one as well!! They are both very simply made, no lace whatsoever but gorgeous to look at! Another thing that i love about these slips is that there are no slits. It makes for a warmer garment and fuller look under my skirt or dress.

For a fancier night out i do of course have dressier slips with the lace detail. One black slip in particular has a double layer of lace and is quite a sight! =)

i'm always on the look out for pretty slips and it's amazing to me now how i always feel like i've forgotten something when i'm without my slip! ;)

Thank you so much for the question!

Ask me anything

The Slow Suck

Master decided to see what i had learned from reading Jack's Blowjob Lessons of course He didn't tell me until that very second.

So without giving too much away, there is always supposed to be some atmosphere set up by the giver. In our relationship it's often quite abrupt and there is no time or no notice, pretty much everything is done when Master says it will be done. Master has precious little patience, not that He wouldn't appreciate the romantic atmosphere He would just never wait for it, like never. =)

So when Master came into the bedroom and said "kneel" and then "Show Me what you've learned". The entire atmosphere that you're supposed to create and mood set up was gone so okay... pressing on! The next thing that came to my mind was "attitude!". Get totally into Him and into the activity, no matter what else i might have been thinking 30 seconds before He came into the room, i had to let that go. Not as easy as you might think huh? Absolutely no preparation and no mood setting time for me either, just stop, drop and suck! haha! So i think Jack's really on to something in the whole atmosphere thing, it's not only good for Him, it's good for you as well. It's great to give you some time to get your head on strait and focus on Him and only Him.

Master did something He's never done before though, He used a little timer and set it so i couldn't see it. He said that i wasn't allowed to make Him cum until the timer went off. So i used different ideas and techniques that i read. i had plenty of time to literally worship Him through His cock in every conceivable way. i could tell when i was going too quickly and i didn't want to get in trouble so i would slow back down. When the timer went off i thought that Master would expect me to make Him cum immediately but i tried to surprise Him. i continued going slowly and only sped up in small increments. The surprise was enough to make it even more fun for both of us!

In His own words "I like it when you go slow, there is more to a blow job than just cumming". There is certainly something to learn from that and much to learn from Master as well.

i hope everyone is enjoying their Saturday night!

MD's treasure

Yakkity Yack

Just like most of the country, we've had an unusually warm winter. It's been fine with the exception of not having any snow for Christmas, i wasn't a fan of that in the least. Not having to deal with the roads and travel has been a blessing though. i'm not a good traveler when the roads are bad or even when they are, for that matter. So when we have plans to go out of town for the first time since Christmas of course it snows! i mean like it's really snowing and i can only hope it tapers off enough for the roads to clear and get completely clear by tomorrow night. It's sort of a big deal because it would be our first local munch and i would hate to cancel for any reason, so we'll see. It's not my choice of course, it's Masters and He won't let me be the deciding factor.

The last few weeks my sister has been complaining of some pain (which she rarely does) and decided to go to the doctor, another thing she rarely does. It was what we suspected, her gallbladder. Interestingly enough you commonly think that only heavy people who eat all fat have gallbladder trouble. It can happen to someone who is just the opposite as well. If you are too thin and don't eat enough fat, your gallbladder can malfunction just as quickly. This is the case with her. For some reason her husband decided to "text" my brother who is traveling instead of call me, when i am home and very easily accessible. This morning she had an acute attack and was scheduled for surgery this evening. my brother left me a voice mail on my cell phone, i've told my brother numerous times that when i am home my cell phone just isn't something i check or even hear and please call the house. Master actually heard my cell ringing tonight, when i spoke to my brother he started with "her surgery will be at 5:30pm". UMMM. So i was able to ascertain that it was my sister's gall bladder.

Ya know, people do silly things when they are in stressful situations, so maybe that's why her husband didn't call me, i don't know. i have to say this though, other than her husband and i don't even know if he can be included, there is NO ONE closer to her in the world than me. i should have been first on his mind on his "who to call" list. Okay, /end rant.

i apologize for bringing this here but sometimes blogs are awesome for venting and not bothering Masters/Husbands with yakkitty yack yack yack. So thank you for letting me blab. =)

i hope everyone that is getting blasted with this storm has very safe travels!

Peace to you and yours,

MD's treasure

Jack's Blowjob Lessons

Jack's Blowjob Lessons By Jack Hutson

i was contacted by Jack a couple months ago to review his book. Now that the holidays are over and i actually had time to finish it, i'm excited to post my review!

Some advice to the reader before you even open the book, brace yourself. This guy is no Don Juan. He isn't a smooth talker, he tells it like it is and it's not all candy and roses. To be honest, you, me and anyone else giving a BJ doesn't give the best one, we're not perfect . All he does is break the news in a very rough fashion. He tells us something that we already know but really didn't want to hear. In my opinion for the very beginning of the book, he's too rough, he should take some time to draw the reader in, he's a bit too off putting. He should remember that he's writing (for the most part) for women and we need to feel a kinship to our author, at least i do.

Now all that having been said, Jack is comical and even though he doesn't make a quick connection with the reader what he does do is earn your respect. This guy knows what he wants and you immediately know that if you do what he's saying YOU WILL IMPROVE, of that there is no doubt. He knows his stuff, he knows what feels good. How do i know? i don't, i'm a woman, but he sure is convincing. He isn't just talking out of the side of his face though, he is detailed enough and schooled (through experience) enough that should you follow his steps, you will give a better blow job and improve your relationships.

A little bit about relationships and Jack's take on that. This part was important enough for me to mention. It is very obvious to me that Jack writes for the short term relationship, date or even a hook-up. It would have been quite refreshing to read more for the long term relationship and married couples. There weren't very many references to keeping your relationship fresh and new, the bulk of the book seemed to refer to the newness of hooking up. He talks a lot about creating an environment that is pleasing candles, music, wine etc. One could certainly tell that this was written from a single person's perspective or someone with no children. Again though, this is "The book" if you want to learn how to give the perfect blow job! No matter what else is included!!!

i will only very briefly mention the proofreading. If you're a stickler for grammar and spelling you might be a bit turned off seeing errors in a published manuscript, if not then you'll be fine. For the price, $47.00, one would expect a thoroughly edited book.

i disliked the section by his friend Tanya J., immensely. i thought it gave a very cheap turn on the book and it wasn't needed at all. She did say one thing that i found noteworthy, don't be afraid to be a slut for your man! It really is what he wants. No matter what anyone has ever told you, don't believe it, he wants a slut in the bedroom. Jack builds up enough trust from his reader at the point where they enter her section that he could have easily (and should have) added this himself. It would have been much more credible and more respectable.

Having read the bulk of my review, one might think that i really didn't care for the book. You would be mistaken. Jack does what he has set out to do! He gives the ultimate blow job lesson and he makes no excuses for loving a great blow job himself. i even found a kinship with Jack because he comes off as a bit of a dominant character. Now seeing that this is the lifestyle i lead it's much easier for me to accept his off handed remarks. Where as others might just see him as being a complete jerk, i know it's very easy for a vanilla to confuse dominance for chauvinism. It's a very fine line Jack's walking and it was one i was comfortable with. A purely vanilla girl might not be.

i have saved the best part for last! Jack is so spot on with this he deserves a standing ovation for this from every man on the face of the earth! To anyone who has ever or will ever give a blow job: Attitude is everything! If you're not loving it, neither is he. /clap If i learned anything from this book, it's that right there! There is much to be learned about giving a good blow job but that right there is the place to start!

Well done Jack, well done.

Jack's Blowjob Lessons- How To Give a Great Blowjob



Thank you Jack for the opportunity to review your book, it was my pleasure to give you an unbiased review in exchange for a copy of your manuscript.

MD's treasure

And Soon, A Cage!

Do you ever just sit looking at the screen knowing that you're supposed to write or even want to write, you even have things to say, but just can't think of how to say them? Yeah that's me today. If someone were to ask me what i had to say i don't know what i would say or where i would start. i have stuff, family stuff, things that are so complicated that it would take a diagram, flow chart and power point presentation to spell it all out. Suffice it to say that if we were free to do so, we would leave this area in the blink of an eye but we're just not. Master's parents need us too much to even think about going anywhere. Okay, onward!

For Christmas Master got the tools He's needed for a long time to build a cage. We've talked for years about where we would put such an object. He wants me to be able to spend several hours or even sleep in this cage so it would be at least as tall as me. If we can figure it out, we would like to put it in the bedroom but really, how do you camouflage something this large? We have a good size bedroom and it's not like we have parades of people in and out of our bedroom but we do, occasionally have someone in our room for one reason or another. i'm not sure that just tossing a blanket over it, is the answer. Sure we could get super fancy and build a cabinet to put it in or over it but we already have a bed in our bedroom that weighs nearly 1/2 a ton, the less weight in there the better! haha =) So here we are, back to square one, we might just have to take our chances that someday someone accidentally sees it.

Now on to the twisted part of it all. i encouraged Him to get the tools and even bought one of them for Him for Christmas, to make the cage. He's been talking about making a cage for ages, we've had the pipe for the cage bars for years, literally. He just didn't have all the right tools. Now He has the tools and i find myself asking myself the obvious question, why would i want Him to have all this stuff to build a cage for me? i get the obvious answer, because He wants it and i want Him to have what He wants, no matter what. i will also admit this is one part of bondage that i love. The box that He puts me in, is dark, locked, i can't hear a thing and i'm almost always bound as well. The cage won't be dark but it will be tight and completely confining. It all messes with your mind if you really think about it, doesn't it?

i am sure when Master is ready to get to work He'll have me help Him build the cage. i worked on the box with Him as well. i like the fact that He'll build it, knowing that it will be well built, sturdy and safe for me. Of course my first time locked inside will be much more frightening than i could ever imagine.

i hope you're all enjoying your weekend!

Peace to you and yours,

MD's treasure

His Attention To Detail

The last few days i have had something wrong with my stomach. So much so that wearing a foundation garment started being uncomfortable. At the end of the first night i mentioned to Master that the pressure on my midsection might be relieved if i were to put on something else. He said it would be fine, if i wanted to take off my underthings. Oddly, i didn't "want" to take them off at all, i needed to but i didn't want to. i'm much happier especially when we're out in public but even when we're at home lying in bed when i know i'm dressed how He loves me to be dressed.

Master got me a new slip for Christmas that i love, it's a full length slip that doesn't have the traditional shoulder straps. They are not adjustable and it fits like a glove, it's soft, silky and i almost hate to take it off to launder it. It's hand made from Amish ladies and the tags on the inseam are handwritten. Master pays such close attention to detail to my wardrobe, improving everything in it, trying to make me as comfortable as physically possible that has made pleasing Him so much more important to me. It's impossible to count how many times He called me into the den over the weeks leading up to the holidays to measure me in different areas "just one more time".

He poured over the stocking site until they had the colors that we like in stock as they were out of almost every conceivable color in all the good brands. i was shocked when i was given such a variety of colors for Christmas because i knew the site was out of choices. He waited and checked back constantly until He got what He knew i needed and wanted.

When He says to me that i can get undressed if i want to, how could i possibly say that i "want to"? i WANT to wear all the pretty things that He buys me and all the pretty things that feel so lovely to wear. Sometimes the spirit is willing but the flesh is weak.

Master told me last night that if this stomach pain doesn't subside soon i'll be going to see about it. i'm quite reluctant and i'm not sure why, only that i don't want to go in and have them tell me it's nothing and that i've wasted their time. i feel so silly doing that! i can only imagine it will go away on it's own with bland foods and rest. In the mean time it's not a bad weight loss plan! lol

i'm blessed. He thinks about me, all the time and i Him. We bicker sometimes over stupid stuff and i don't know when to shut my mouth because i'm still learning i guess we're both learning really. He continues to try to make me happy and i try to find ways to make Him happy. i am so blessed.

Peace to you and yours,

MD's treasure