Master and i decided to brave the shoppers yesterday. We didn't get an early start because we told His Mom that we'd wait for her to be ready and we'd take her along. Surprisingly both Master's parents went with us for the day and His Mom did really well, she only used a wheel chair for one store. While it was a long day, it was a pretty good day. If anyone lost their patience or got tired, it was me. i could tell that i wasn't behaving well at least i really felt edgy toward the end of the night. It wasn't because of the crowds, i have patience for that, it's always because of communication. i think too much for myself instead of just asking what we'll be doing or where we're going, i 'think' or try to anticipate the next move. While yesterday wasn't as bad in times past, thinking too much or trying to anticipate can get me into a lot of trouble.
Yesterday i was doing some of my own Christmas shopping as well. It's really the only time of year that i handle money on my own. Of course when i was single i took care of my entire life and did just fine but i am out of practice. That's really not the only thing that's difficult though, i am more easily confused now and when i am hurting, like i was terribly yesterday, i am much more easily mixed up and thrown for a loop. Something as simple as a single item purchase is enough to send me into a tail spin. Sound very stupid? Think of how many steps there are in a purchase, now think of it when there are literally hundreds (like there were yesterday) of people in line behind you. We were at best buy and there was a guy directing traffic at the registers. i should NOT have been making a purchase yesterday. i did it, i lived and i made my purchase. i also had Master there to tell me how much my purchase was going to be, to the penny, about 10 minutes before we got to the register. So i had tons of time to get my money ready and hand the guy the cashier the money and move along, with no fuss. Unfortunately, Master had to be there with me, while i bought His present.
i love being completely dependent on Him, knowing that i need Him more than anything in this life. Other times i feel like a complete burden. i know i can do things when i'm not hurting terribly but yesterday i felt really bad. No one was the wiser, it's not like anyone knew i needed help.
Is there ever a point where we become too dependent? Or would you say this is like any relationship or marriage. Where you hold each other up when the other one needs it once in a while? It's not like this is an every day occurrence although it has happened more than once and i am able to function on my own and shop when i am feeling well. i can and do pay a couple bills and make business phone calls or deal with professional situations when Master instructs me to do so. But when i do have to completely rely on Him, that's it, it's all or nothing with me and i struggle with that at times. i am dependent on Him in our daily life, for sure and that's comfortable for us. It's just when i lose everything for a time, that's when the guilt seems to set in.
It's just something i've thought of over the years and i know that Master would say i could never be too dependent but it's always been something i've wondered about.
Peace to you and yours,
MD's treasure
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On Being A "Professional" Master/slave
We've never, ever wanted to be mistaken for any of the countless people who claim to be a Master or slave when in reality, they just pretend for money. There's potentially a fine line in other folks' perception, and I've gone to considerable effort to never cross that line. My treasure writes here because she enjoys it, she loves to get and reply to comments and she also does it because I require it. In the beginning, it was a blog, nothing more, nothing less. In the last few years, it has become not only a blog, but also a hub for all of our online activity. Some of that activity is done simply for fun, some of it is to feed some sort of narcissistic need for kudos that I still deny having, and some of it is done to try to supplement our income by sharing our real life with others who might be willing to toss a few bucks our way for a small window into our normal activities. Normal for us but mere fantasies to them, things that they can't get at home or simply things that get their blood flowing south. Like most people, we started out never showing our faces, never being specific about where we live, blah blah blah. One day, I decided that I was tired of acting like I was ashamed of Myself or My girl, just so someone I knew wouldn't find a photo that would make them all butt hurt because of their own insecurities and closed-mindedness. In a very short time, we had started making videos and posting non-anonymous pictures all over the place. Eventually, My girl started doing live cam sessions for cash and it's become a multifaceted "business". That's why we're making this page. I didn't want it on the front page of the blog because this is still her blog, and always will be, but we wanted to add a page for some of the money-making things that we do.
About two years ago, we decided to test the waters with Kindle publishing. For a nominal fee of 99 cents a month, you can get this blog automatically delivered to your Kindle. Unfortunately, this makes it less likely for My girl to get the comments that she so loves, so if you decide to go the Kindle route, please come back here later to leave that comment you were thinking about!
Lately, we've had gentlemen ask if it was possible to buy My treasure's worn stockings. If worn stockings is what you seek, then we are happy to oblige. We've charged very reasonable amounts in the past, and that won't change. Pricing will depend entirely on quantity, color, availability, your location and any other variables or requests. We get her stockings from Europe, and we only order a few times a year, so we may have limited color options at any given time. If you're interested in My girl's worn stockings, or any other requests for that matter, please email her directly at precioustreasure_md@yahoo.com. We've done custom videos and would also be happy to do custom photosets. If it turns you on, and you think we can provide it, please don't hesitate to ask.
About 2 and a half years ago, we also decided to start making videos for sale. We've had a banner on the front page, but we've never really promoted it at all. Well, I'm not really going to promote it too much here either, but if you'd like to check out our clips, you can find them here. You can also find some of them here.
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Personally i do not think we can be too dependent with our Masters, after all we signed up for this. If we relinquish control we give up some of our independence and become dependent. Oh sure there are times that our independence needs to come out but for the majority of the time, i would rather be dependent on Him fully that to be independent without him. Humbly Masters' shi
ReplyDeleteThanks! Being completely dependent is what gives me the freedom to concentrate on better serving Him. i guess there are just those times where i might feel a bit guilty that sometimes i don't have a choice.
ReplyDeleteThere is no doubt that you've said it all when you say, "i would rather be dependent on Him fully that to be independent without him." i love it! =)