i am a little tired today, seems like a stood all day yesterday and i'm not even sure what i did really. i cut up a few vegetables but that shouldn't have taken all afternoon, then again i move pretty slowly and i always work in feeding the bird in there somewhere too.
The email project that Master started seems to be drawing to an end soon. He sent back another response last night and i have to double check to see if i am expected to respond again. This project has opened my eyes to one main thing. i have come a long way from the person i was when i came here. i was living on my own and running my own life, paying my own bills, my own apartment, my own car, a job and dressing in a manner that would now get me locked in the box for a week at a time.
Now i don't leave the room without permission or take a bite to eat without His say so. i wouldn't dream of putting my foot into the leg of a pair of pants and i can't really even imagine the feel of pants anymore, it's been years since i have worn pants. i think the only time i have been told to wear them is when going to a haunted house when He knows i'll have to crawl, so as not to skin my knees.
He said that He is going to respond one more time to the email project with a summary, i am looking forward to it and apprehensive at the same time. This has become a lot more serious than i thought it would be, when it started out He had said that it would be fun and i thought it would be a little more lighthearted than it's turning out to be. my biggest fear is that i am a disappointment to Him and it is really tough when i think He is expecting one thing and it turns out He's expecting something entirely different.
Speaking of being a disappointment, it reminds me of the guilt i felt the other night when i was hurting very badly. The last couple weeks my head has been bad, worse than normal where there just isn't much i can do to take the edge off the pain. Last Sunday i ended up getting sick and the other night the pain brought me to tears. Neither one of those things are new or different but they are not a regular occurrence. i have been trying to just work through the pain, when i got sick on Sunday, i kept my plans and still went to the Church supper with Master's Mom. When the pain was so bad it made me cry i went ahead and finished the dishes.
i would have loved to cancel my supper on Sunday but i don't want to let people down, Master is tired of it and i'm sure no matter what people say, Master's Mom would be upset too. i would have been happy to go to bed and leave the dishes and food sit out but that would mean Master would have to take care of it or it wouldn't get done. i just can't do that to Him and feel good about it. How can i lie in bed while He cleans up a mess in the kitchen that i made? He said that i didn't have to do it, it could be done later or whatever.... i didn't really say much... but it's my "job". He didn't want me to do it, He wanted me to lie down. But it's my job! *sigh* i was done when He walked in, or nearly done so i went to bed, but where does the guilt end? No matter how many times He was to say it, i still think i would feel guilty.
i am rambling now... i know i just send these messages out into oblivion for no one or someone to read but i should at least try to make a little sense lol.
Peace to you and yours,
MD's treasure
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On Being A "Professional" Master/slave
We've never, ever wanted to be mistaken for any of the countless people who claim to be a Master or slave when in reality, they just pretend for money. There's potentially a fine line in other folks' perception, and I've gone to considerable effort to never cross that line. My treasure writes here because she enjoys it, she loves to get and reply to comments and she also does it because I require it. In the beginning, it was a blog, nothing more, nothing less. In the last few years, it has become not only a blog, but also a hub for all of our online activity. Some of that activity is done simply for fun, some of it is to feed some sort of narcissistic need for kudos that I still deny having, and some of it is done to try to supplement our income by sharing our real life with others who might be willing to toss a few bucks our way for a small window into our normal activities. Normal for us but mere fantasies to them, things that they can't get at home or simply things that get their blood flowing south. Like most people, we started out never showing our faces, never being specific about where we live, blah blah blah. One day, I decided that I was tired of acting like I was ashamed of Myself or My girl, just so someone I knew wouldn't find a photo that would make them all butt hurt because of their own insecurities and closed-mindedness. In a very short time, we had started making videos and posting non-anonymous pictures all over the place. Eventually, My girl started doing live cam sessions for cash and it's become a multifaceted "business". That's why we're making this page. I didn't want it on the front page of the blog because this is still her blog, and always will be, but we wanted to add a page for some of the money-making things that we do.
About two years ago, we decided to test the waters with Kindle publishing. For a nominal fee of 99 cents a month, you can get this blog automatically delivered to your Kindle. Unfortunately, this makes it less likely for My girl to get the comments that she so loves, so if you decide to go the Kindle route, please come back here later to leave that comment you were thinking about!
Lately, we've had gentlemen ask if it was possible to buy My treasure's worn stockings. If worn stockings is what you seek, then we are happy to oblige. We've charged very reasonable amounts in the past, and that won't change. Pricing will depend entirely on quantity, color, availability, your location and any other variables or requests. We get her stockings from Europe, and we only order a few times a year, so we may have limited color options at any given time. If you're interested in My girl's worn stockings, or any other requests for that matter, please email her directly at precioustreasure_md@yahoo.com. We've done custom videos and would also be happy to do custom photosets. If it turns you on, and you think we can provide it, please don't hesitate to ask.
About 2 and a half years ago, we also decided to start making videos for sale. We've had a banner on the front page, but we've never really promoted it at all. Well, I'm not really going to promote it too much here either, but if you'd like to check out our clips, you can find them here. You can also find some of them here.
My treasure has also started working as a cam girl on ImLive. There's a banner on the front for this as well, but you can also click here or on the banner below to find her over there or schedule a meeting with her.
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Sweetie,
ReplyDeleteI haven't read your whole journal, but it worries me that you have headaches like that. If you haven't already, you need to get to a Dr immediately. Headaches like that can sometimes have life threatening causes . . .
Please, take care of yourself
Blessings