i can't believe it's September. i'm sitting at my desk with the windows open and i'm actually chilly. It seems like last week we were dying from the heat and now it's looking like fall is already settling in. Fall has always been my favorite time of the year. i love the leaves turning and the cooler days outside in a sweatshirt, the smell of people burning leaves. i love everything about it, the pumpkins and decorations out on the lawns. But this year, it's all a little different. This year, i have to endure my first full fall season without my Mom. She loved this time of year. We always took a day trip up to Wisconsin as we lived very near the boarder of Illinois and Wisconsin. That was always an amazing day. We'd get apples and have a special lunch at The Swiss Colony. She loved that day so much, we all did, for that matter.
In a little less than a month, she'll be gone a year. i can't even begin to believe she'll be gone an entire year. i think the worst part is, that it's really starting to settle in with me and my brother and sister, that this was really it. i know how silly that sounds, we've had 11 months for it to sink in, but each day i think, omgosh i'm really not going to talk to her again, am i? This was for real, she's really gone and there's nothing i can do about it. We're all having a hard time right now, i noticed on my cell phone yesterday that my brother called me. He never calls me unless something is wrong and then he always leaves a message. The only other reason he could have called would be that he's just not doing well. A talk with my sister confirmed my suspicion. He's a mess. my Grandma called yesterday morning too, then again last night. i have no idea how she managed it but she dialed the number some how and got me. i know when she calls, she really needs me. She'd never call otherwise.
A few nights ago i walked out on the deck and was hit with the smell of burning leaves, i love this smell and before i knew what was happening i was clutching my chest and missing my Mom so badly i could hardly stand it. i don't know if this will ever get better. i don't lie in bed and sob, i continue on with my daily life, but this heartache is something i'm not sure will ever fade. i just wish i knew if she was alright. i wish i could ask her if she's OK and if she's sure she made the right decision. But that's something i guess i'll never know. i just have to trust that she knew what was she was doing, that she really knew what the out come of her decision was going to be. i have to have that much faith in her, she deserves that. Much easier said than done.
i asked Master this morning if He'd allow me to go see my Grandma for a few days. i need to see her and i would like to go before the snow flies. i haven't been to see my Mom's grave marker yet and i could stop up there on the way to see her. i'd love to take some flowers to my Mom's grave and just sit and chat with her a bit. i know very well that she's not there, but maybe i'll take a little comfort in knowing that i'm near what used to be her. Her birthday was October 13th, i'm going to see if He'll allow me to go around that date. Maybe if i'm really good, He'll let me go and not be mad at me. It's always tense when i visit my family. Maybe this time it wouldn't be so bad. That's what i'm hoping for anyway. =)
Well i'm off to the doctor in just a little while, i need to get rid of this cough i've had for two weeks!
Peace to you and yours,
MD's treasure
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On Being A "Professional" Master/slave
We've never, ever wanted to be mistaken for any of the countless people who claim to be a Master or slave when in reality, they just pretend for money. There's potentially a fine line in other folks' perception, and I've gone to considerable effort to never cross that line. My treasure writes here because she enjoys it, she loves to get and reply to comments and she also does it because I require it. In the beginning, it was a blog, nothing more, nothing less. In the last few years, it has become not only a blog, but also a hub for all of our online activity. Some of that activity is done simply for fun, some of it is to feed some sort of narcissistic need for kudos that I still deny having, and some of it is done to try to supplement our income by sharing our real life with others who might be willing to toss a few bucks our way for a small window into our normal activities. Normal for us but mere fantasies to them, things that they can't get at home or simply things that get their blood flowing south. Like most people, we started out never showing our faces, never being specific about where we live, blah blah blah. One day, I decided that I was tired of acting like I was ashamed of Myself or My girl, just so someone I knew wouldn't find a photo that would make them all butt hurt because of their own insecurities and closed-mindedness. In a very short time, we had started making videos and posting non-anonymous pictures all over the place. Eventually, My girl started doing live cam sessions for cash and it's become a multifaceted "business". That's why we're making this page. I didn't want it on the front page of the blog because this is still her blog, and always will be, but we wanted to add a page for some of the money-making things that we do.
About two years ago, we decided to test the waters with Kindle publishing. For a nominal fee of 99 cents a month, you can get this blog automatically delivered to your Kindle. Unfortunately, this makes it less likely for My girl to get the comments that she so loves, so if you decide to go the Kindle route, please come back here later to leave that comment you were thinking about!
Lately, we've had gentlemen ask if it was possible to buy My treasure's worn stockings. If worn stockings is what you seek, then we are happy to oblige. We've charged very reasonable amounts in the past, and that won't change. Pricing will depend entirely on quantity, color, availability, your location and any other variables or requests. We get her stockings from Europe, and we only order a few times a year, so we may have limited color options at any given time. If you're interested in My girl's worn stockings, or any other requests for that matter, please email her directly at precioustreasure_md@yahoo.com. We've done custom videos and would also be happy to do custom photosets. If it turns you on, and you think we can provide it, please don't hesitate to ask.
About 2 and a half years ago, we also decided to start making videos for sale. We've had a banner on the front page, but we've never really promoted it at all. Well, I'm not really going to promote it too much here either, but if you'd like to check out our clips, you can find them here. You can also find some of them here.
My treasure has also started working as a cam girl on ImLive. There's a banner on the front for this as well, but you can also click here or on the banner below to find her over there or schedule a meeting with her.
Banners here also!
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