This past Tuesday Master and i went up to see my grandma. She's moving from my home town to be near my sister. So much has happened between my sister and i that i'm not sure how i'm going to forgive her. i know i will forgive and i also know that some time in the future, maybe a week, maybe a year or maybe ten years, she'll hurt me again. i won't forgive her on that basis, when i am ready to completely forgive her it will be with my whole heart. i don't believe that you should forgive someone on a contingency basis.
So now that my grandma is gone from my home town, my sister and brother live far away from there, i'm not sure what sort of family i have left. i have Master and His family and i am so thankful for that. Having Master is what i'm hanging on to for dear life. His family is a strong support system and no matter what, His mom and dad are always there for us. But it's never the same as having the family you've known all your life.
While i might have thought that my grandma going to be near my sister would be a relief for me, all i felt when we left from seeing her was loss. It's just too much to take in, losing my Mom and now having no idea if i'll see my grandma alive again or when or if i'll see my brother and sister again. i can't really even begin to imagine it all. When we left town to come home Master asked me if there was any where i wanted to go or do while we were there. i asked him to take me to my favorite pet store. i got to play with the birds and hold a tiny Yorkie. While i'm sure someday i'll go back for whatever reason, i know i'll miss it while i'm gone.
i was going to go to my Mom's house one last time to drop off a garage door opener, but i couldn't make myself do it. That house is the house i've known and every inch of it is "Mom". When i see that house in person or in my mind i see how lovely it is and how hard she worked to make it hers. The work that she put into it and the love that she had for that house is just too much for me to handle, i am not sure i'll be able to see it again.
i'm not leaving behind too many friends, two that i really keep in touch with and i know i won't lose touch with either of them. One i've been friends with for some 30 years and the other is too stubborn to allow me to just float away. When i left there to come here, i left knowing that i could go back at any time and that my Mom would always be there for me. i knew that no matter what happened here or if things ever went south for Master and i, i would always have a home to go to. i no longer have that, should something ever happen with Master and i, i literally have no where to go and no one to turn to. While i have all the faith in the world that He and i will be together till the end of our days, one never knows what the future holds.
i'm trying like mad to focus on the fact that Master and i have a wonderful future together to look forward to with little to no chance that i'll have to be gone for weeks on end. i can now just settle back and work toward rebuilding us and continue working toward being a good slave for Him. He's been a bit more strict and demanding since we've gotten home from vacation and it's been good for both of us. It's easy to lose sight of your goals when it seems the world has been turned upside down. Now things are getting back to how He likes them and i'm watching my P's n Q's and trying to mind Him. So much easier said than done.
i've really been hurting a lot this past week, i can't seem to focus on anything and i know my memory is poor. All of the above is a clear indication that my depression is in full swing. While i've been on an anti-depressant for a while now, there's not much it can do for these sudden flairs. i would be shocked if i weren't depressed right now, it's the dead of winter with little sun light, i'm mourning the loss of my Mom and the loss of the family i've always known, how could i not be depressed? Just knowing that i'm in the middle of a downslide helps me because i know i can worm my way out of it. A little bit at a time, but i'll come back up.
Tonight we're going out for supper with some friends and that's always a good thing for me! i need to make sure that i'm planning things to look forward to, that's big for me. Having said that and looking at the clock on the wall, i see that i better scoot off of here and get ready to go!
Peace to you and yours,
MD's treasure
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On Being A "Professional" Master/slave
We've never, ever wanted to be mistaken for any of the countless people who claim to be a Master or slave when in reality, they just pretend for money. There's potentially a fine line in other folks' perception, and I've gone to considerable effort to never cross that line. My treasure writes here because she enjoys it, she loves to get and reply to comments and she also does it because I require it. In the beginning, it was a blog, nothing more, nothing less. In the last few years, it has become not only a blog, but also a hub for all of our online activity. Some of that activity is done simply for fun, some of it is to feed some sort of narcissistic need for kudos that I still deny having, and some of it is done to try to supplement our income by sharing our real life with others who might be willing to toss a few bucks our way for a small window into our normal activities. Normal for us but mere fantasies to them, things that they can't get at home or simply things that get their blood flowing south. Like most people, we started out never showing our faces, never being specific about where we live, blah blah blah. One day, I decided that I was tired of acting like I was ashamed of Myself or My girl, just so someone I knew wouldn't find a photo that would make them all butt hurt because of their own insecurities and closed-mindedness. In a very short time, we had started making videos and posting non-anonymous pictures all over the place. Eventually, My girl started doing live cam sessions for cash and it's become a multifaceted "business". That's why we're making this page. I didn't want it on the front page of the blog because this is still her blog, and always will be, but we wanted to add a page for some of the money-making things that we do.
About two years ago, we decided to test the waters with Kindle publishing. For a nominal fee of 99 cents a month, you can get this blog automatically delivered to your Kindle. Unfortunately, this makes it less likely for My girl to get the comments that she so loves, so if you decide to go the Kindle route, please come back here later to leave that comment you were thinking about!
Lately, we've had gentlemen ask if it was possible to buy My treasure's worn stockings. If worn stockings is what you seek, then we are happy to oblige. We've charged very reasonable amounts in the past, and that won't change. Pricing will depend entirely on quantity, color, availability, your location and any other variables or requests. We get her stockings from Europe, and we only order a few times a year, so we may have limited color options at any given time. If you're interested in My girl's worn stockings, or any other requests for that matter, please email her directly at precioustreasure_md@yahoo.com. We've done custom videos and would also be happy to do custom photosets. If it turns you on, and you think we can provide it, please don't hesitate to ask.
About 2 and a half years ago, we also decided to start making videos for sale. We've had a banner on the front page, but we've never really promoted it at all. Well, I'm not really going to promote it too much here either, but if you'd like to check out our clips, you can find them here. You can also find some of them here.
My treasure has also started working as a cam girl on ImLive. There's a banner on the front for this as well, but you can also click here or on the banner below to find her over there or schedule a meeting with her.
Banners here also!
*hugs hon* You've been missed. I'm glad to know that you are healing. Continuing to watch over you and think about you.
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