As of yesterday, i had been home a week. Monday i will head back up to my mom's to once again care for my grandma and check on my mom's status at the nursing home. i have spoken to my sister several times this week and from what i can tell, my grandma was just as mean to her as she had been to me. So i have to ask myself, why do i continue to care so much about her well being? She's really just being awful to everyone around her and doesn't care two bits about us or how hard we are trying to make her life a little easier. She sat last night and tried her hardest to pick a fight with my sister regarding how little everyone has done for her.
my sister is much less tolerant than i am and had no intention of allowing her to bash us. i usually just sit by and don't say much because i feel like it will only make things worse. i really don't have any intention of doing that anymore. If my grandma insists on being rude to me and others around her, i'm just not going to allow her to talk to me or anyone else in a disrespectful manner. i treat people the way i wish to be treated, i would only expect the same from her. i'm not going up there with an attitude or any preconceived ideas as to how things will or won't happen, i am just preparing myself to stick up for myself this time.
my mom is having even more trouble with her dialsys and i'm just not sure what we're going to do about it. i'll know much more when i have that meeting at the nursing home Monday afternoon.
If i sit and allow myself to think about leaving again, i nearly have a panic attack. i can't breath, my chest hurts and i feel like i might get sick. Even putting this much thought into it makes me nearly fall apart. i want to stay home, i just don't know how much more i have in me to give. i hate how much i miss Master and my kids, i hate knowing that He's here alone and lonesome. It scares me to know how lonesome i know i'll be and not only is it a thankless job but the people i'm trying to help (mainly my grandma) won't be nice to me.
Master maintains that the best solution is to move them here to live near us. While i was completely on board with that in the begining, i'm just not sure how it would work out now. i think the task is overwhelming and i'm not even sure if they can live alone here, even with Master and i a couple blocks away. If my mom were just a little bit better off with her health, i think the idea would be perfect but i just think we may have waited too long.
i have asked my sister and brother for ideas but the truth is, none of us know what to do. We are completely at a loss for the best thing to do for them. There must be some kind of social services out there who advise people in these situations, i think when i get up there next week, i'll contact someone just to get a professional opinion. i know this is a unique situation but surely it's not the first of it's kind.
i worked hard around here yesterday, trying to get laundry done, the house in some semblance of order and the animals taken care of. i'm planning on spending the weekend enjoying being home with Master and the kids before i even have to think about leaving. Master has said so many times that i'm emotionless. In this case, i'm doing all i can to not think about it, to not think about what lies ahead, it's the only way i think i can deal with it and not completely fall apart into a blithering, mumbling, crying baby. (Doesn't that paint a pretty picture?) This too shall pass, be it sooner or later, i know we'll get through it. What other choice do we have? All i need to know is that Master is here for me when i need Him and that He supports me. That alone makes a world of difference to me.
i love You Master!
Peace to you and yours,
MD's treasure
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On Being A "Professional" Master/slave
We've never, ever wanted to be mistaken for any of the countless people who claim to be a Master or slave when in reality, they just pretend for money. There's potentially a fine line in other folks' perception, and I've gone to considerable effort to never cross that line. My treasure writes here because she enjoys it, she loves to get and reply to comments and she also does it because I require it. In the beginning, it was a blog, nothing more, nothing less. In the last few years, it has become not only a blog, but also a hub for all of our online activity. Some of that activity is done simply for fun, some of it is to feed some sort of narcissistic need for kudos that I still deny having, and some of it is done to try to supplement our income by sharing our real life with others who might be willing to toss a few bucks our way for a small window into our normal activities. Normal for us but mere fantasies to them, things that they can't get at home or simply things that get their blood flowing south. Like most people, we started out never showing our faces, never being specific about where we live, blah blah blah. One day, I decided that I was tired of acting like I was ashamed of Myself or My girl, just so someone I knew wouldn't find a photo that would make them all butt hurt because of their own insecurities and closed-mindedness. In a very short time, we had started making videos and posting non-anonymous pictures all over the place. Eventually, My girl started doing live cam sessions for cash and it's become a multifaceted "business". That's why we're making this page. I didn't want it on the front page of the blog because this is still her blog, and always will be, but we wanted to add a page for some of the money-making things that we do.
About two years ago, we decided to test the waters with Kindle publishing. For a nominal fee of 99 cents a month, you can get this blog automatically delivered to your Kindle. Unfortunately, this makes it less likely for My girl to get the comments that she so loves, so if you decide to go the Kindle route, please come back here later to leave that comment you were thinking about!
Lately, we've had gentlemen ask if it was possible to buy My treasure's worn stockings. If worn stockings is what you seek, then we are happy to oblige. We've charged very reasonable amounts in the past, and that won't change. Pricing will depend entirely on quantity, color, availability, your location and any other variables or requests. We get her stockings from Europe, and we only order a few times a year, so we may have limited color options at any given time. If you're interested in My girl's worn stockings, or any other requests for that matter, please email her directly at precioustreasure_md@yahoo.com. We've done custom videos and would also be happy to do custom photosets. If it turns you on, and you think we can provide it, please don't hesitate to ask.
About 2 and a half years ago, we also decided to start making videos for sale. We've had a banner on the front page, but we've never really promoted it at all. Well, I'm not really going to promote it too much here either, but if you'd like to check out our clips, you can find them here. You can also find some of them here.
My treasure has also started working as a cam girl on ImLive. There's a banner on the front for this as well, but you can also click here or on the banner below to find her over there or schedule a meeting with her.
Banners here also!
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