On the way home, Master asked me how i thought Lisa would act in that situation. The more i got to thinking about it, the more i thought that it was really unfair to compare me to Lisa. i mean she's been a slave for many more years than i have and she's had so much more time to be "molded" by her Master. i can only hope that she and other slaves make some of the same mistakes i do. But yet we all learn from experience and from our Master's and move on. Only i think i'm a slow learner because i keep making the same mistakes! Sometimes i wish that Master would just tell me in a firm tone to knock it off or to shut up. There has to be a way to over come my belligerence in times like these.
Yesterday we went to my sister-in-law's house for my birthday to celebrate with Master's family. When we got there His sister and brother-in-law weren't there! They can be so inconsiderate it's not even funny. When they finally showed up an hour late, they offered no apology, only to say that they were helping a neighbor out with her horse. So Master and i were both upset about this, although i'm not sure why seeing that they do this all the time. It just didn't make to a good start to our evening. When Master and i aren't meshing well it seems like everything i do makes Him mad and there's nothing i can do to make Him happy. It was just a bad weekend and i'm very glad it's over.
When we got home Master decided that i needed some time to think, so He stuck me in the "box" and left me there for what seemed like 3 hours. As it turned out it was only an hour but when i'm in there i have no sense of time. i was supposed to think about what i had done wrong over the weekend and how i could have acted differently. More than anything i think that He knows that the box offers me some quiet time to think and puts in a fairly submissive state. So it was a good thing, when i came out He put me on the sybian and told me to take my time while He busied Himself elsewhere.
Well i'm off to see Bette Midler in concert, i hope it's a good time.
Peace to you and yours!
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god hate these bloggers wanting me to sign in and stuff to post a comment..Its fire (yes Master) the comment about what would Lisa do and your reaction struck me. Your not Lisa and your not me and your not joe blow..so anyone's reaction other then yours..is irrevelant. As for making mistakes. You bet we do, we make the same mistakes because we are human, there are times when we have a hard time swallowing the life choice we have made or understanding how we could *let them* beat us. This is all normal..becasue we are humans first..then slaves.
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I will be the first to admit that it was probably a dumb thing to say. I really wasn't meaning to compare her to anyone, I guess I was just trying to say "Hey, look, this kind of behavior is inappropriate and unacceptable." and I thought by bringing up the name of another slave that I know she admires, maybe she'd stop sulking and think about what that person might do in the same situation.
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I tried that, and all it got me was a silent sulking slave. I'd rather argue the problem out than sit and stew and play the silent treatment game.
Thank you all so much for the comments and support. i know that i'm not like any other slave and that's what makes us all special is that we're all different. The one thing that i do know is that we all react differently to the discipline and structure we are provided. my hope is that i can some day blindly follow orders from my Master, trusting in Him that everything He does is in my best interest. i trust Him now with my life, i just have a hard time letting go. It's something that i have been working on for a long time and i know i still have a long way to go. It's good to know that there are other slaves out there with similar issues and i take comfort in the fact that i'm not alone in my journey.
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