All of a sudden i'm waking up by kicking off the covers and find myself looking for the nearest fan to sit or stand in front of. i believe summer is very near. While i love summer activities, i'm not at all fond of the heat. Master is always talking about moving to Florida when the truth of the matter is, i enjoy cooler weather. i'm not a huge fan of the -20 days but i would rather bundle up than roast.
Master sent me to one our favorite journals last night and i heard the most beautiful song. It really tugged at my heartstrings. If you're into sappy music, you should check it out at HomelivingHelper
This is also an amazing blog for women who are interested in a more old fashioned traditional homemaker role in the home. There are tips on cooking and decorating as well as how to be a bit more organized with your daily routine. i love this site.
i have another doctor appointment this week. i'm hoping that i might find some answers to my libido issue. i've heard good things about this doctor and even more encouraging things about one specific medicine that is supposed to help with Polycystic Ovaries. i'm looking forward to at least learning more about it. It certainly can't hurt to look into it.
i find myself having to stop and grab at my chest and gasp for air a bit less often. This happens when i'm in the middle of any task at all and i remember that Mom is gone. It hits me like truck and my heart literally hurts. i never know what might trigger it or when it will happen, but it's happening a bit less often. It happened last night for the first time in a few days. i took the dogs outside and i've been going out with them, i just feel better if i'm out there with them, less chance of them trying to escape out our somewhat broken down (not even all that old) fence. It was a lovely night and the moon was just starting to come out and it really felt like a summer evening. It wasn't quite dark yet and it was the time of day when i would call her just to say hi. i thought just for a split second, i'll run in and grab the phone while i'm out here with the dogs and call Mom. i took a step toward the door and of course, stopped on a dime. It hurt so bad i grabbed our outdoor swing and just stood there until i could catch my breath again.
i miss her most on Sunday. Sunday when i was younger was always a stay home and hang with Mom day. Sometimes we'd go shopping for the afternoon but most days we would just hang out, i'd sit at the kitchen table for hours and look through clothes catalogs and she would just putter around the house. Then we'd start dinner for whoever was going to be coming over that night. In the later years we'd sit out on the porch in the nice weather, this was when she learned that she didn't always have to be working, when she started learning how to relax and just sit and read or visit. She wasn't very good at that until her later years. She always thought that there was something she should be doing or something that needed done. She was right, there was always something to do or something that needed done, but she learned that it would keep until another day. So Sunday nights are the hardest for me. When i moved out on my own i still spent most Sundays there with her and my grandma. It was one day that i enjoyed the most. One thing that scares me a little about having these episodes less often is that i need to miss her, i don't want to stop missing her, ever. Once that's gone i'm afraid i'll stop thinking about her as much and eventually go a whole day or two without thinking about her. i'm not ready for that, or maybe i just think i'm not ready. i don't cry as much as i used to, i know that. i'm just letting this happen as it comes and trying not to rush it or push it away. i don't know what else to do.
Master and i have been talking more lately i think. We've certainly had a rough time this last month or so and we both want to make things work, so we talk. Not always about anything important, we just chat. i hope He's feeling better about things. We've been talking about some type of employment for him and i believe He's going to start looking. i think that will help things a lot. We'll have to see though.
Have a great afternoon!!
Peace to you and yours,
MD's treasure
Biz Page
On Being A "Professional" Master/slave
We've never, ever wanted to be mistaken for any of the countless people who claim to be a Master or slave when in reality, they just pretend for money. There's potentially a fine line in other folks' perception, and I've gone to considerable effort to never cross that line. My treasure writes here because she enjoys it, she loves to get and reply to comments and she also does it because I require it. In the beginning, it was a blog, nothing more, nothing less. In the last few years, it has become not only a blog, but also a hub for all of our online activity. Some of that activity is done simply for fun, some of it is to feed some sort of narcissistic need for kudos that I still deny having, and some of it is done to try to supplement our income by sharing our real life with others who might be willing to toss a few bucks our way for a small window into our normal activities. Normal for us but mere fantasies to them, things that they can't get at home or simply things that get their blood flowing south. Like most people, we started out never showing our faces, never being specific about where we live, blah blah blah. One day, I decided that I was tired of acting like I was ashamed of Myself or My girl, just so someone I knew wouldn't find a photo that would make them all butt hurt because of their own insecurities and closed-mindedness. In a very short time, we had started making videos and posting non-anonymous pictures all over the place. Eventually, My girl started doing live cam sessions for cash and it's become a multifaceted "business". That's why we're making this page. I didn't want it on the front page of the blog because this is still her blog, and always will be, but we wanted to add a page for some of the money-making things that we do.
About two years ago, we decided to test the waters with Kindle publishing. For a nominal fee of 99 cents a month, you can get this blog automatically delivered to your Kindle. Unfortunately, this makes it less likely for My girl to get the comments that she so loves, so if you decide to go the Kindle route, please come back here later to leave that comment you were thinking about!
Lately, we've had gentlemen ask if it was possible to buy My treasure's worn stockings. If worn stockings is what you seek, then we are happy to oblige. We've charged very reasonable amounts in the past, and that won't change. Pricing will depend entirely on quantity, color, availability, your location and any other variables or requests. We get her stockings from Europe, and we only order a few times a year, so we may have limited color options at any given time. If you're interested in My girl's worn stockings, or any other requests for that matter, please email her directly at precioustreasure_md@yahoo.com. We've done custom videos and would also be happy to do custom photosets. If it turns you on, and you think we can provide it, please don't hesitate to ask.
About 2 and a half years ago, we also decided to start making videos for sale. We've had a banner on the front page, but we've never really promoted it at all. Well, I'm not really going to promote it too much here either, but if you'd like to check out our clips, you can find them here. You can also find some of them here.
My treasure has also started working as a cam girl on ImLive. There's a banner on the front for this as well, but you can also click here or on the banner below to find her over there or schedule a meeting with her.
Banners here also!
Monday, April 30, 2007
Thursday, April 26, 2007
Recipes
i sure would like some new ideas for dinners. Seems like when i think about making dinner i'm in a rut. i can't come up with anything new or exciting. i made goulash the other night for the first time and while this is far from earth shattering, it's something i had never made before and i was happy with the out come. i'm bad with coming up with new ideas for dinners. i have no imagination, when i'm hungry, i just want food. There must be some kind of web site out there just full of 30 minute meal ideas or something near to it. my search yeilded nothing though. So if there is anyone out there with some fairly easy ideas of something that just might be a bit different, i'm all ears!!!!
Not much new here still, it's been raining nearly non stop for 3 days now. i'm actually happy to see this much rain as it might mean that the water table down here is rising and we might have some water in our irrigation pump for the yard. We've been planning on putting in a deep well this summer and i'm pretty sure we'll go ahead with it either way, it just makes nervous each time i hear a stall in the water when i turn it on that this might be the last drop we get from our current water source. The river was very high so that's also a good thing, i guess it means that up north they got a lot of snow so that also helps.
i see the doctor tomorrow for a med update and review. i'm not expecting any changes but i sure would like to consider some other pain meds for my head. This week has been particularly bad as it's "that time" for me. This is always the very worst time and the pain is nearly uncontrolable. i'm limited as to the meds i can take to prevent rebound headaches and all narcotics have the potential for rebound. The one med that really works for me is $210 for 9 pills. While we could financially do it, i'm not sure for how long. my insurance doesn't cover any of that cost, at all. i'm still waiting for that miracle drug to be out put out by that miracle drug company who isn't out to make a mint off people in pain. HAHA... i think i'll be waiting a while!!!
Well... that's it for me, i'm off to toss another load of laundry in. Take care!
Peace to you and yours,
MD's treasure
Not much new here still, it's been raining nearly non stop for 3 days now. i'm actually happy to see this much rain as it might mean that the water table down here is rising and we might have some water in our irrigation pump for the yard. We've been planning on putting in a deep well this summer and i'm pretty sure we'll go ahead with it either way, it just makes nervous each time i hear a stall in the water when i turn it on that this might be the last drop we get from our current water source. The river was very high so that's also a good thing, i guess it means that up north they got a lot of snow so that also helps.
i see the doctor tomorrow for a med update and review. i'm not expecting any changes but i sure would like to consider some other pain meds for my head. This week has been particularly bad as it's "that time" for me. This is always the very worst time and the pain is nearly uncontrolable. i'm limited as to the meds i can take to prevent rebound headaches and all narcotics have the potential for rebound. The one med that really works for me is $210 for 9 pills. While we could financially do it, i'm not sure for how long. my insurance doesn't cover any of that cost, at all. i'm still waiting for that miracle drug to be out put out by that miracle drug company who isn't out to make a mint off people in pain. HAHA... i think i'll be waiting a while!!!
Well... that's it for me, i'm off to toss another load of laundry in. Take care!
Peace to you and yours,
MD's treasure
Tuesday, April 24, 2007
Little projects
i've been trying to get back on track a little bit with my sleeping, going to bed a bit earlier and getting up a bit earlier. If i get up a little earlier i get a few things done. i'm getting caught up on my laundry and getting the house cleaned up a bit. Nothing major just little things that need doing. i always feel good when i've gotten a little bit done.
i'm still searching for some tattoo art. i found a huge web site with a lot of nice pictures, but i'm still looking for something with more of a BDSM feeling. Those seem few and far between. There must be an untapped recourse out there that i just haven't come across.
Master's Mom called to tell us one of His sister's horses isn't doing well. i hate to hear that about any animal, she dearly loves her horses and i'm really hoping he makes it out of the woods very soon. He's a beautiful animal and she's spent so much time and money training him that it would be an enormous loss.
Not much else is new really, just trying to get a few things done around here. Master has a list of things He's wanting to work on and i'm sure with the warmer weather we'll be outside getting those things done. It's raining again today but it's been really warm. Typical Spring time!
Peace to you and yours,
MD's treasure
i'm still searching for some tattoo art. i found a huge web site with a lot of nice pictures, but i'm still looking for something with more of a BDSM feeling. Those seem few and far between. There must be an untapped recourse out there that i just haven't come across.
Master's Mom called to tell us one of His sister's horses isn't doing well. i hate to hear that about any animal, she dearly loves her horses and i'm really hoping he makes it out of the woods very soon. He's a beautiful animal and she's spent so much time and money training him that it would be an enormous loss.
Not much else is new really, just trying to get a few things done around here. Master has a list of things He's wanting to work on and i'm sure with the warmer weather we'll be outside getting those things done. It's raining again today but it's been really warm. Typical Spring time!
Peace to you and yours,
MD's treasure
Saturday, April 21, 2007
A little help
i failed an easy task. Last Thursday when Master and i had that long talk He told me that He wanted me to find some pictures of some tatoos that i liked. While i did do some searching, everything i found was protected and i either couldn't save the picture to show Him or they were thubnails and wouldn't let me open them up to see the larger version. Some even had floaters going through them so that you couldn't copy them. i am just looking for some sites that might have some interesting art that His initials might be incorporated into. i've done more searching this morning and i'm just not seeing anything that knocks me off my feet. i want to find something that i really love. So if anyone out there has any ideas of where i might be able to find some good quality pictures, please feel free to comment. Thanks!!!
Tonight we're going to the cabin for supper. We're grilling chicken and i'm going to make a broccoli casserole to take with. i have to find the recipe and run to the store yet, but i have a few hours before we have to go so there's no rush. Master is still snoozing on the couch and i'll wake Him in a bit to take me to the store. i love that He takes me where i want to go. i rarely drive although i can of course, it's just something that is nice to give up when i can.
Have a great weekend!!
Peace to you and yours,
MD's treasure
Tonight we're going to the cabin for supper. We're grilling chicken and i'm going to make a broccoli casserole to take with. i have to find the recipe and run to the store yet, but i have a few hours before we have to go so there's no rush. Master is still snoozing on the couch and i'll wake Him in a bit to take me to the store. i love that He takes me where i want to go. i rarely drive although i can of course, it's just something that is nice to give up when i can.
Have a great weekend!!
Peace to you and yours,
MD's treasure
Thursday, April 19, 2007
Sunny Day!
The weather here today is perfect, sun sun and more sun. There's an awesome breeze blowing in through the windows and the smell of spring is beautiful. We had a hard frost the other night and i saw lots of gardens covered up to protect the tulips and other spring flowers. Tulips are my very favorite flower so i hope that they were saved. Pretty soon it will be nice enough outside for Master to take me to the park to feed the ducks and geese. Last time we were there it was still cold out and they were very agressive, i assume because they just aren't fed regularly during the colder months.
Master and i are out of here in a bit to do a little shopping and most likely some supper somewhere. There is what seems to be a mountain of laundry piled up that either i haven't noticed or chose not to notice. i need to get at that yet tonight when we get home. Laundry is my biggest downfall, i love to wash and dry and hate to put it all away. Sometimes i wish i had rules about chores, but i'm sure that will never happen because household things are just something Master isn't concerned about.
Well i'm off to iron a shirt for Master, can't have Him running about looking like a ragamuffin, now can i?
Peace to you and yours,
MD's treasure
Master and i are out of here in a bit to do a little shopping and most likely some supper somewhere. There is what seems to be a mountain of laundry piled up that either i haven't noticed or chose not to notice. i need to get at that yet tonight when we get home. Laundry is my biggest downfall, i love to wash and dry and hate to put it all away. Sometimes i wish i had rules about chores, but i'm sure that will never happen because household things are just something Master isn't concerned about.
Well i'm off to iron a shirt for Master, can't have Him running about looking like a ragamuffin, now can i?
Peace to you and yours,
MD's treasure
Wednesday, April 18, 2007
No idea what to call this
i'm running out of names for my entries or at least today i have no ideas. i think the reason that i haven't been posting much in the last few months is because i just don't have a lot to say. my mind races, i have a million things going on inside, yet when i sit down to write, i draw a blank.
i think things have been a bit better for us. We spent quite a bit of time this past weekend together and not playing everquest. Master had a DJ gig on Saturday night and it went well and i think it was one of the more enojyable ones he's done. He's getting a bit more comfortable with doing it, it's just stressful when drunk red necks come up and want to hear some song that no one in the world has heard of. Other than that, it's a pretty good time and for the time it takes, it's not bad money either. He doesn't "charge" anyone ever, so people tend to be more generous.
Sunday evening i made a nice dinner and we sat and watched several episodes of 24 that were on the DVR waiting for us to watch. We love that show, it's really exciting and we're completely hooked. Master should be able to go fishing soon if the river doesn't rise any more. It's been very high and not safe enough to go out on yet, but maybe in another week or 2 they'll be able to get out there. It's still a bit too early as i'm sure it's still pretty cold out on the water.
i haven't been sleeping well. Two, three or four hours tops and then i'm awake and can't go back to sleep. The only bad thing about that is then i'm really tired just a few hours later. i have't been napping either because i know that just messes up your system. The bad thing about not sleeping is that it really messes my head up. i'm sure it will pass. Just after my Mom died i started sleeping all the way through the night, sometimes not even waking to use the bathroom and that's incredible for me. That seems to have taken a dramatic change now though. i'm sure i'll get back to normal again, maybe it's the weather or just changing seasons.
Have a great day!
MD's treasure
i think things have been a bit better for us. We spent quite a bit of time this past weekend together and not playing everquest. Master had a DJ gig on Saturday night and it went well and i think it was one of the more enojyable ones he's done. He's getting a bit more comfortable with doing it, it's just stressful when drunk red necks come up and want to hear some song that no one in the world has heard of. Other than that, it's a pretty good time and for the time it takes, it's not bad money either. He doesn't "charge" anyone ever, so people tend to be more generous.
Sunday evening i made a nice dinner and we sat and watched several episodes of 24 that were on the DVR waiting for us to watch. We love that show, it's really exciting and we're completely hooked. Master should be able to go fishing soon if the river doesn't rise any more. It's been very high and not safe enough to go out on yet, but maybe in another week or 2 they'll be able to get out there. It's still a bit too early as i'm sure it's still pretty cold out on the water.
i haven't been sleeping well. Two, three or four hours tops and then i'm awake and can't go back to sleep. The only bad thing about that is then i'm really tired just a few hours later. i have't been napping either because i know that just messes up your system. The bad thing about not sleeping is that it really messes my head up. i'm sure it will pass. Just after my Mom died i started sleeping all the way through the night, sometimes not even waking to use the bathroom and that's incredible for me. That seems to have taken a dramatic change now though. i'm sure i'll get back to normal again, maybe it's the weather or just changing seasons.
Have a great day!
MD's treasure
Saturday, April 14, 2007
More posting....
Master and i had a very very long talk the other night and one of the many things He would like to see is more posting from me here. With the loss that i've suffered not just Mom but almost a feeling of abandonment by my entire family, this has been a very difficult time for me, to say the least. i haven't been dealing well with much or at least i should say i haven't been dealing with anything at all. i just don't do anything. i don't talk to Master and i have no interest in doing much of anything but sit at my computer and lose myself in a game where it's all fantasy and i don't have to think about reality. But Master has brought me back to real life once again. He's given me the opportunity i need to heal and He's also said that while i'm allowed to grieve, i'm not allowed to get lost. We went through rules and i was allowed to comment, most of my suggestions were over ruled as usual but there were some points that He was willing to compromise and that alone is amazing.
i think more than anything it was a grounding experience. He's just trying to bring me back to where i'm supposed to be and remind me of my place. A place that without the reminders could be lost on me. i do feel better about where we are headed as our future was unclear to me at times and i have to admit, i've not even spent much time thinking about our future. It's hard to look forward when you're completely stuck in rut and can't see above the sides (so to speak). He has also agreed to allow me some alone time now and then at His discretion to allow me to recharge. i am such an introvert that i need time alone to do absolutley nothing at all. That's how i recharge my batteries.
All in all it was a great talk and some good things came from it. i am still confident that we'll come through this stronger and closer than before.
MD's treasure
i think more than anything it was a grounding experience. He's just trying to bring me back to where i'm supposed to be and remind me of my place. A place that without the reminders could be lost on me. i do feel better about where we are headed as our future was unclear to me at times and i have to admit, i've not even spent much time thinking about our future. It's hard to look forward when you're completely stuck in rut and can't see above the sides (so to speak). He has also agreed to allow me some alone time now and then at His discretion to allow me to recharge. i am such an introvert that i need time alone to do absolutley nothing at all. That's how i recharge my batteries.
All in all it was a great talk and some good things came from it. i am still confident that we'll come through this stronger and closer than before.
MD's treasure
Tuesday, April 10, 2007
30 (more) Things about me
I was reading through past journal entries and came across my "100 things about me" post and i thought that some of that might be a bit outdated.
1. i was with my Mom when she died.
2. i grieve every hour of every day for the loss.
3. i love Easter and bunnies, especially the little chicks you see in the stores.
4. i love almost anything as long as it's pink!
5. i'm pretty sure i was born to be nocturnal, i would much rather sleep all day and be up all night.
6. i love sitting on the living room sofa wrapped up in "The Fuzzy" and watch TV with Master and the "kids".
7. i think Master is funny. (even when i try not to laugh, i still do)
8. Someday i'd like to have a great big swimming pool.
9. Someday i'd like to have a Cockatoo.
10. i have a one track mind.
11. i have a huge scar/hole on my back, i hate it!
12. i love purses, Master says i have way too many. (i'm not sure that possible)
13. my favorite ice cream is Mint Chocolate Chip.
14. i have a whole armoir full of jewelry and i still can't stop myself from looking at the jewelry counters.
15. The reality of never becoming a mother is very sad to me.
16. Sometimes i think women are best to be seen and not heard, much like a beautiful picture, to be taken in.
17. i think women are the most stunning creatures on the planet.
18. Shopping with Master is one of my all time favorite activities.
19. i don't like mice, i especially don't like them in the car!
20. Master says i'm going deaf.
21. i think Pizza should be a "food group"!
22. i also believe that Chocolate is one of life's little miracles.
23. i have a strong faith in God and believe that He answers prayers.
24. i love hearing different voices, i think british accents are amazing and could watch any Hugh Grant movie over and over, just to hear him speak.
25. Once i've heard a voice, i almost never forget it, even after many years.
26. i love to go to the park and feed the ducks.
27. i am a terrible procrastinator.
28. i used to love to talk on the phone, not as much anymore.
29. i take the hottest shower imaginable!
30. i love company, i wish i had people around me more often. (i get that from my Mom)
1. i was with my Mom when she died.
2. i grieve every hour of every day for the loss.
3. i love Easter and bunnies, especially the little chicks you see in the stores.
4. i love almost anything as long as it's pink!
5. i'm pretty sure i was born to be nocturnal, i would much rather sleep all day and be up all night.
6. i love sitting on the living room sofa wrapped up in "The Fuzzy" and watch TV with Master and the "kids".
7. i think Master is funny. (even when i try not to laugh, i still do)
8. Someday i'd like to have a great big swimming pool.
9. Someday i'd like to have a Cockatoo.
10. i have a one track mind.
11. i have a huge scar/hole on my back, i hate it!
12. i love purses, Master says i have way too many. (i'm not sure that possible)
13. my favorite ice cream is Mint Chocolate Chip.
14. i have a whole armoir full of jewelry and i still can't stop myself from looking at the jewelry counters.
15. The reality of never becoming a mother is very sad to me.
16. Sometimes i think women are best to be seen and not heard, much like a beautiful picture, to be taken in.
17. i think women are the most stunning creatures on the planet.
18. Shopping with Master is one of my all time favorite activities.
19. i don't like mice, i especially don't like them in the car!
20. Master says i'm going deaf.
21. i think Pizza should be a "food group"!
22. i also believe that Chocolate is one of life's little miracles.
23. i have a strong faith in God and believe that He answers prayers.
24. i love hearing different voices, i think british accents are amazing and could watch any Hugh Grant movie over and over, just to hear him speak.
25. Once i've heard a voice, i almost never forget it, even after many years.
26. i love to go to the park and feed the ducks.
27. i am a terrible procrastinator.
28. i used to love to talk on the phone, not as much anymore.
29. i take the hottest shower imaginable!
30. i love company, i wish i had people around me more often. (i get that from my Mom)
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